Rachel and her comical ways

Rachel: Handphone, handphone, where are you? ...... Handphone handphone, I found.. YOU!! (thinking it rhymes)
Me: rachel, its not really rhyming, its just the same word. You, and you.
Rachel: oh.
(we go into laughter for like 3 mins)

Rachel: You still have a blog?
me: yeah
Rachel: huh. When was the last post?
me: uh, today?
Rachel: oh, but no one reads it right?
me: uhhhhhhh, i think people read it. Like i think beatrice reads it, and papa, and uh other misc. people.
Rachel: okay. Like people always go tsk tsk (pronouncing it really english)
Me: HAHAH, rachel, its Tsk tsk tsk. (making that sound)
Rachel: OHHHHHHHHHH.
(we both go into hysterical laughter for like 5mins- yes, on this subject)

ironies/paradox/whatever.

I think if you are forced to smile then naturally whatever inside gets buried forever and ever.
agree? yes.
And if people tell you to be yourself, and also tell you to change for the better, then how do you do both?
I am keeping a book of ironies as of now.
I think its good inspiration for next time.
And a book for bible verses.
We need to treasure such things in life, i think!

Noor gave me a watergun for christmas!
Okay, not really, its a nike water bottle. :D
Yey! HOHOHO.

I lovemiffy.

I AM BACK!
I am still working on the super ultra long post.
I don't know how anyone can blog a long post, but I am still gonna do it anyway.

Today, at my grandma's house at the lift, there was this Job opportunity paper that was hiring security guards/officers.It had a hp number to contact. I was reading it. Then, my dad saw it, and he grabbed a bunch of their numbers, and told me that he was trying to make them happy when they saw that many numbers were taken. Then he pointed to the officer word and said, "I'm an officer."

okay, laugh.. NOW. haha!
I know I always say this, but my dad is so cute, i love him so much. And he has soft hair, i like to touch. And he is not balding. Very handsome daddy, but to all the women out there who is interested, he's taken. (what is this post!)

So, I went to Isetan today with my mummy/rachel.
nicholas had to study at home, and my daddy went to play 18hole. (he has a single digit handicap-this means he is superb at golf)
Well. OMG, I JUST REMEMBERED!
Agnes B no atarashi kaban wa kaimashita. (Bought a new agnes b bag)
My japanese is so good. (i think)

I am talking to Yan Yan now. I Miss yanyan, I've not seen her for a year.

oh, btw.
Even though christmas is over and all, the spirit of giving is still in the air right?
So if anyone wants to get me a belated gift or something,
please get me a miffy thingy.
Cause I'm in love with miffy.
And I have lots of miffy stuff, but its okay if you happen to buy me the same thing, cause I'll still love it to bits.
(my friendship can be bought with miffy stuff. ok-i'm kidding)
Here's what miffy looks like:


So cute!!
I think the first time Miffy came into my life was when Sarah sahana told me i look like the rabbit with the cross on its mouth. I was like: Miffy? And she was like: Oh yah yah yah! that one! And I was like okay. And the only person who gave me a Miffy thing is Arlene.
I miss Arlene, I miss the times when I always called in time to comfort her, not that i want her to be sad or anything. but its just the coincidence.then and again, she won't see this, so nevermind.

I bought stuff from Japan, but you'll hear all about it in my japan post(that would be so so long). BYE!

Oh yeah, I created a miffy smiley x:B the x is the mouth, the : are the eyes, and the B are the ears. So cute right? Please dont steal my idea of a miffy smiley. thankyou.

Last post until one weeks time!

Good morning, this is a short last update on my blog! :)

Rachel: Am I wearing too black?
Papa: no, very nice. Its the colour of snow.
Nicholas: huh? But i thought snow is white?

Haha, my papa is so cute! :)

Okay, lounge food, here I come! :D

(please pray I don't forget to bring anything!)
Gtg now, byeeez.

(I created a rap ytd, it goes: C to the H to the I to the L to the L-A-X. CHILLAX! -I'm too cuul. so sorry to be a lameoez)

So longggg.

HELLO!
I know this excitement comes so late, but I am excited! :D
Its Japan! It's Japan! :)
Olivia calls me hamster-fur when I call her Koji. Lol.
Anyway, I still have not done several things, I better write them down else I'd forget.
See you.
(I am not bringing my DSLR because its too bulky. My daddy has a leica, and he's gonna use that.)
Okay, please remind me to bring my glasses, thank you! Byebye for a week!
When I come back, I am going to win the longest blog post ever. (you know who you are)
BYE AGAIN!

This is the third time I am blogging!
I am so so tired, but I am knitting. My eyes are closing, and I am waiting for my hair to dry.
To add on, I have not packed my bag, which means that I am in for a hard time tomorrow.
I feel like eating airport lounge food now. But I guess I just have to wait for tomorrow (since its already friday)
My knitting is good.
I feel that I can finish it/wash it by tonight. (as in friday night)


I really like tegan/sara's song.
If you listen to it, their voices sound like one person is singing it, but they both are singing. And they are twinz. That's too cuul for me to handle. (what the heck am I talking about)

I lost the bet. (omg, why am I thinking of this suddenly?) Right, Japan.

No,nononoonno.
What am I talking aboutt!

forget my hair, i am sleeping. NOWWW.

WHAT TIME IS IT?
And I have not packed finish.
Wait, I have not even started! Talk about procastination!
I am rush, rush, rushing my scarf now. Knit awayyy!
I tried putting make up for fun just no, on my eyes.
It sucked. I am not doing it anymore, I give up.
I'm just gonna earn lots of money and get someone to do it for me- next time.
What do I do on the plane?
I can only think of drawing. I will do that.
I've not drawn in ages.
I am gonna sync my ipod. nowww. (or later)
I'VE NOT DONE A SHIFT WITH NOOR IN AGES. )):

Filah treated me to a yummy lunchh!
yey, okay.
Today was not very crowded.
We kept eating seaweed and chocolate cookies.
Japan is in TWO DAYS.
Thats incredibly fast.
Oh yeah, and $19.30 was missing from my till today. SO SCARY.
But luckily we found out why. so I'm not in trouble anymore, I just have to sell off 10 coffee passports. (new promotion) in my next shift. I think the district manager is nice.
My papa bought 4-D. 1930.
:D
I am stuck to Tegan/Sara. They are good. (where does the good go)
Yeah, i like that kind of songs.
And the whole of grey's anatomy plays that kind of stuff, so. I like their soundtrack.
I'm so cuul, cause when they played where does the good go, i knew it was Tegan/sara.
My ears are so sharp.( whateverrr)
okay. Going to pack my luggage. I am bringing a big big one, so i can get nice presents for friends :) (and myself, and my family)

Why am I jealous, why am I jealous, why am I jealous?
I am not, I am not, I am not.

I slept for two hours plus today. When I got home.
I could be turning into a pig, we just don't know it yet.
Well, then now I'm going off to watch greys anatomy.

I feel like having POA lessons now. (for some weird reason)

I'm starting to get my dates mixed up.
16th.
See, one month from now, we'd all have our O levels results.
One month ago, we just finished our O levels.
And a month before that, we had to endure just one month of studying.
One month is so taboo with time. (If I'm making any sense)
Well, I'm just working through the month.
I think its more worthy, rather than just going out/shopping and stuff.
I realize my blog posts are all so so boring now, that school has ended.
I don't think about school, but when I do think of having lessons and all, I do kind of miss it.
OKAY.
I was just thinking how it sucks big time that our class does not have a prom.
I wasn't up for it much, but to me, now, it sucks. it sucks.
Angel, if you read this(i know you don't), please please organize a prom for our class how draining it is.

goodbye, and I hope to hear from somebody soon. (about a certain prom)

Well, I should totally do a proper post.
Okay, so I went for work today.
at 7am, I was like expecting the store to be closed and all since the managers always come around 5-10mins later. But the store is open. So I walk in and Rudd(i)? Is there. I've never done a shift with Rudd(i). I ask him what time he came, and he came at 6:30. "for fun" So cool how he can go early for fun.
Anyways. Nuri came later on. It was my first shift with her too. She's quite fun, cause when I accidentally ask "for here"/"to go" for the cold beverages, we would laugh about it. :) and, she likes whipped cream too.
Then later later farik came. Its like my 1001 shift with him. So who cares.
Then Filah and noor came but my shift was already over, so I went off!
Filah said that she's doing opening with me on wednesday!
I am bringing seaweed! (WE LOVE SEAWEED)
OH, i was just thinking about greys anatomy, and NURI WATCHES IT TOO! omygoodness, i forgot all about it! we could have talked and talked about it! ): next time! :D
Okay, so after that, i went to takashimaya to meet my okasan.
SPEAKING OF OKASAN, I AM GOING TO JAPAN IN 4/5 DAYS. yeyy!

I havent do my scarfys finishies. ):
letmegonowww.

I want to sleep, but my guitar teacher is coming.
i am un-happy. :) = :(
Oh, I shaved my legs yesterday, they are so smooth noww :D
Actually, i wanted to brag to noor but then we didnt have same shifts, so whatever!
I wished my guitar teacher forgot there was lesson today.
I wanna sleep so bad, so bad.
I want to do other things also. Uh, like. I don't know.
I am starting to find that things to do list annoying, so i might just removeee it.
Oh wells. BYE. (guitar teach is here)

SAVED.

OHMYGOODNESS.
Today was the longest, slowest day at work.
Until Olivia came, suddenly, everything sped up, and suddenly, it was over. Haha!
Well, Olivia ended up doing the board, I feel like I stabbed her in the back. sorry. But It was nice, to me :)
I think I am falling sick. But my strong body is going to fight all the germs and stuff. Then I'll be Ok!
Greys anatomy today!
We didn't watch yesterday, because I went to the zoo with my mum, sister and claudia (couzin-i like spelling 's'es as z) then to the night safari. It was fun. :)
Work was more fun yesterday, there were lesser people and noor and I had nothing much to do, except that I could suggest lots and lots of things to do but noor didnt want to do them, so whatever!
I will develop the film that claudia and I took together.
The pictures that she took should be shakey, cause she walked and took it at the same time. Hahah! Until i told her she should like stop before taking. lol! And also some pictures might be over exposed cause she snapped a couple of times before I decided to help her move to the next frame.
Blahblahblah, so wordy!
I dont like this post,so i might just delete it tomorrow!
BYEBYE!

I dont like my small artbook.
It is mean to me.
I am going to punish it by using my big artbook, although its so inconvenient.

Yey, my momma is gonna bring me to Camera Cabaret in Tokyo,Shibuya!
Its cuul, then I can get my blackbird fly from there.
They are having a camera fair, and I hope that everything nice won't be sold out and stuff.

I bought film today, the uncle at the shop recognizes me!
He was like: you work upstairs?
I was like: yeah! You can come and get coffee :D
And he went: Yeah, sure!
(although i kinda knowhe wouldnt)
AND I KNEW IT, i should have offered him samples that day, then maybe I can get discounts.
I sound so cheap now.

WHATEVER THE CASE,
I'm really excited for the Japan trip!

OHMYGOODNEESSS, its like coming in almost a week!
I'm scared of aeroplanes, did i tell you that?

--.--

Japan in uh, 14 days.
I'm excited.
I'm trying to think of what to do on the plane and on the bus to the hotel, so if you have good suggestions that make sense, tell me :D
We're coming to the end of Grey's Anatomy season 2!
There is this annoying woman who is in love with George. I can't stand her, she's just not compatible for him. They should have chosen some other woman.
And Meredith is so mean to George unintentionally, I don't really like her.
And George is also being so annoying, just try to forgive Meredith already!
And Derek is being unreasonable.
Okay, but you don't care.
I have japanese exam tomorrow! I'm a little nervous, but not so, cause I had a lesson just now.
And my dad bought a Leica camera!

I am bored.
Hence the double blog post in one night.

Greys anatomy is so so nice. (I know I talk about it all day)

Anyway, I want to laze. around. slack, stone, whatever.

Well anyway. I so wish that i won't be assigned to the register. But I should shut up and stop talking about it because I might just jinx myself.

Ok, guitar lesson tomorrow, and i have not practiced. Tell me i'm not dead.

Japanese exam on sunday, and i have not studied.

I realize how incompetent I am.
And I still can talk of lazing. Wow.

I always have a blocked nose at night. So I sound so nasal and I can't sing even if iwanted to. (ohmygoodness, thats so random)

I want coffee suddenly.
Yum. yum. (shut up already!)

WHY ARE MY NIGHT POSTS ALWAYS LIKE THAT.

I had my barista test today, I passed, I'm officially a part-time barista, yey.
As usual, i kept spilling milk. hee.
Stayed on to do dishes and stuff for awhile, then i left.
Anyway, I went to meet my mom at Taka for lunch with Aunty lorna, my sister and claudia (my cousin)
I felt very sick throughout, but it wasn't so bad that I couldn't walk around.
I'm pretty tired today, I shall take a nap maybe.
GREY'S ANATOMY ROCKS.
i like izzie, i think she's pretty.
and i also like meredith. she's also pretty. :)
i like george, he is such a loser in a funny way.

today, this taxi driver told me that there are some people who try to sort things out themselves. He said I look mongolian because of my thick eyebrows.
I want to trim Pluck them, now. NOW.

haha, okay, I've updated my list of things, check it out! :D

sincerely,

I want to do things I've always wanted to do.
So I would.

I cannot find myself leaving everything behind,
its so long ago, but its still in me.

If you're trying to change yourself, how can you be yourself?
Timely paradox.

And why does change take so long to come.

What if we all disappeared and then what?

I figured we'll always be the same.
Even if you say you've changed, you're just resisting who you are in the first place.
When you're tired, it'll all go to waste.
I make sense, so figure it out.

My mind annoys me very much.

I hate to be like this, but it happens every month, deal with it.



That aside,
My momma bought season 2 and 3 of Grey's anatomy. YAHOO.
Plus, we're gonna watch the Lexus cup tomorrow, :D

Today, i went out with Mabel, Melanie, Beatrice, Charite and Germaine.
It was quite fun. yepz. we watched the messenger. It was a little scary. thats all.

I went home, and the lifts weren't working. So i took 8 storeys up the stairs by myself in the dark. How terrifying, only I wasn't really scared.

I'm really sorry i sound so cynical today. try tomorrow or something.

I've not blogged!
On thursday, it was a great day.
It started being great after I made the caramel frapps. (cause I remember how to make them)
Well, when my shift ended, I went out to call ARLENE!
IT WAS HER BIRTHDAYY! :)
she was at Escape. (but why am I telling you?)
Anyway, i miss Arlene, and I want to meet her after my Japan trip. :)
After the call, I went back to reading one chapter of wuthering heights (yes,I know) because olivia bet that I couldnt read a chapter finish. but I did, so she lost. Then I feel alittle bad, cause one of the starbucks partner was being friendly to me, but I was totally unfriendly cause I was reading my book.
Later, there was this PUZZLE that Fadzil gave Olivia, who gave me.
It took me extremely long to solve it, but I solved it, I take pride in it, but it didn't make me feel very smart.
Ok. overall, it was a fun day, Everyone was being nice to me.
(I'm lazy to go on into details)

Today, I had the best lunch ever (ok, not exactly, but itwas so yummy)
Then I bought season 1 of greys anatomy.
Went home, watched greys anatomy with my mum, until we're left with two more episodes.
I love that show, i love that show!

Going to go out with my tennis friends tomorrow! Although I am sad that I can't go to watch the Lexus golf thing with my family. ok, but well, its already arranged, and either ways, I'll hve fun. so. YEAH.

sleepsleep (huh)

I don't know what to talk about.
Oh, after really long, I finally developed my pictures. I am going to try one more roll and get good pictures before giving up. (cause this time, i overlooked the focus knob)
Yes, or maybe i won't even give up! :)
YEAH, thats it.

I'm going to use the DSLR very soon.
Update soon with nice pictures!

AND,
my job is fun.

UNFAIR.

HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO CLOSE THE WINDOWS WHEN I AM USING THE TOILET. THEN YOU TAKE EVERYTHING OUT ON ME ONLY. IT WAS THE WINDOWS IN ANOTHER ROOM THAT WAS OPENED WASN'T IT. AREN'T YOU BEING EXTREMELY UNFAIR? ITS NOT MY FAULT I WAS IN THE TOILET WHEN IT STARTED TO RAIN. I CAN'T CONTROL THE WEATHER OR MY STOMACH. I DON'T THINK I DID ANYTHING WRONG TO DESERVE A SHOUTING. AND THE WINDOWS IN THE ROOM I WAS IN WAS CLOSED FROM THE START.

My sister got a Violin today!
It's not the lousy kind, It's made in Germany. And it costs $3000!!!

Anw, i had a very delicious dinner today, at Lei Garden!
Yummy yum yum!

Ok, since i don't have much to blog about since i woke up at 1:30pm, I'm gonna post another picture of my toenails. To prove that they are RED AND BLUE, not RED AND WHITE.
Haha!

(please just look at the color, and not my toes, cause i think they are quite unsightly)

Olivia, sorry for just now!
Although we're already over it.




I think its sympathy i don't want.
How about you?
Do we care when we're being made use of?
I won't.
They'll realize it someday right?

toenailss

I Have so many conversations now.
MUMMY! MY TOENAILS NICE? :D
Mummy: HORRIBLE!!
):
Mummy: But I like to paint like that last time. I did red,pink, red,pink,

Elaine and Kayla gave me the nail polish.
I'm tired now, I just came back from training!
But I wont sleep too soon.

Oh yeah, olivia and I had sushi for lunch. :D
I was gonna fall asleep during SB training.
I don't know what else to blog about so bye.

"Pless Pray" (press play)

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!

this is what olivia and I talk about on msn.
I am going to try to stop quarreling with her.
Vivie・・ \ says:
YES DARLING, DEAREST PLEASE TELL THE TRUTH.
Olivia ♡ says:
why you call me darling.
Olivia ♡ says:
DON'T CALL ME DARLING.
Olivia ♡ says:
VJSKMDSS,V.C/
Vivie・・ \ says:
OK, I CALL YOU KOJI. FROM LAST TIME.
Olivia ♡ says:
..
Olivia ♡ says:
I is no fish.
Vivie・・ \ says:
NOT KOI LAH
Vivie・・ \ says:
KOJI
Olivia ♡ says:
SAME THING.
Olivia ♡ says:
IN NEOPETS, IT'S KOJI
Vivie・・ \ says:
whatever, we're not on neopet.s
Olivia ♡ says:
SAME.
Vivie・・ \ says:
Different
Vivie・・ \ says:
KOI is spelt without a J and KOJI is spelt with a J
Olivia ♡ says:
KOJI/
Vivie・・ \ says:
huh?
Olivia ♡ says:
NVM

The sleepover last night was REALLY REALLY FUN!
I am going to post one video and lots of pictures when KAYLA gives me the pictures.
My computer had problems reading her SD card,. so oh-well.
Anyway, I tell everyone to go read Olivia's MSN personal message. It is the most touching thing i've ever heard. And on my birthday!

Thank you Elaine and kayla and olivia for the nice things you gave me. :)
And thank you melanie in advance for something that's in my mailbox.
:D and everyone else that wished me, even though i don't really play a significant part in your lives.
And thank you papa and mummy, i really love you(s).
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH MY LOVELY SISTER RACHEL!
THANK YOU FOR THE LATE NIGHTS WE SPENT STUDYING/ TALKING TO EACH OTHER.
YOU WERE NEVER A DISTRACTION, ONLY A SOURCE OF ENCOURAGEMENT, AND I LOVE YOU , AND I TREASURE YOU VERY VERY MUCH!

I also want to say, i love my brother.
He is really nice to me.
He asked me what i wanted to buy for my birthday (but i dont have anything, so sadly.)
And he is buying our cake for us, and he talked to me in a really sweet tone just now when i told him what flavour would be good. and i really feel happy when he did that. And i really sound crazy now. sorry.

A-SU-TA-RA-BI-SU-TA-BA-E-BE!

I'm re-watching HANA KIMI.
I'm so bored at home.
My mum treated me to dim sum today
I feel so blessed because when i woke up, i felt like eating dim sum, and one hour later, I AM EATING DIM SUM!
well so anyway.
I just wanted to talk about DIMSUM.


I dont want to ruin us because of a job.

Tralala.

OKAY.
Looking at my list, I feel so unaccomplished.
I feel so un-freed.
I feel like there is this knot inside of me.
I feel so un-relaxed.
Such a huge feeling, yet i can't put a finger to it.

So I'm going to try to get away from negatives, and do alittle positive exercise. I am going to write 10 reasons why i should be happy.

Ten reasons why i should be happy/relieved
1. O levels are over
2. I found a nice job.
3. I can go out with my friends
4. I can spend time doing things i wanted to do before o levels
5. I am going to Japan
6. My birthday is coming
7. I can forget about studying-for awhile
8. I can look forward to things
9. I can have time to draw
10. I can take photographs

Then while doing this list, i get it, why I'm so upset.
i typed it out, but i deleted it off, cause I'm being too ungrateful.
ok.
I'm tired.
People write songs when they are exhausted right?
So I'm gonna write one. NOW.

STOP ITTT.

My fetish for Wuthering heights died exactly at its page ninety-four.
I pity the state of that.
But I'll make sure it gets striked off. (did you notice the to-do list?)
So, I'm going to watch another episode of Code Blue.
It's a doctor show.
I'm throwing a sleepover next wednesday with Elaine, Kayla and Olivia!
I'm more than excited for it. :)

I can't wait for training tomorrow.
I hope it doesnt go over time or something- or i'll be late for my Japanese Lesson.
Which reminds me that I've not finished revising.

Anw, tsk. I'm irritated.

The other day
(car drives past
:Like that guy doesnt look like a big shot in his working clothes
papa: really? but he is..
: huh, serious? But he don't look like one.
papa: Yeah, he is. He is big and short.
: hahaha!
(he wasn't really bigg and shorttt.)

Olevels are over. (I'm going to repeat this in my many blog posts. :D )
I'm something like broke. Cause i bought some clothes. hee.
But we need clothes during holidays right? Right.
i have not developed my roll of film yet.
It's been like quite awhile already. Will it spoil? I'm afraid that it'll spoil.

Starbucks is really fun.
Really!
Whatever it is, please buy coffee from us. (olivia/I) When we are in-store. (or not. As long as you help our store increase sales, we'll be really grateful)
Ok, I'm still feeling all messed up and un-organized.
I still want to take photos at the place near ACRES.
It's such a reserved place. I took used my holga to get pictures there, but guess what. I forgot to cover the red thingy. So my film was exposed with red rectangles. haha, so stupid.
OKAY.
I'm tired, let me get some sleep. BYE.

No.more.studying.

I'm a little late on blogging about this, but, MY O LEVELS ARE OVER!
happy birthday momma!(american accent. As heard from kayla. Oh mama, i am talking about her again! haha; cue to freak out!)
Well anyway, Olivia, Elaine and I went to Kayla's house around 4:30 (cause i lost my way, cause I was knitting in the bus, and i missed my stop) to bakey bake cookies/brownies. It was fun. I'm so amazed by Kayla's house. Its so special. It has lots of cool things. (not that my house don't)
I'm excited. I can do so many things now.
But I feel everything is so disorientated now. Like I want to do so many things at a go, my mind can just explode anytime.
Well, tomorrow, Olivia and I have a pre-training module. at our JOB PLACE :D yey, it's a secret, and you don't know where it is!
Ohyeah, my phy/chem paper was so far away in the early hours of the day that i forgot to say HOW WELL I DID IT. I got 35or 36/ 40! (clapclapclap) Mrs pillai asked me how was the paper, so I asked if she wanted to check it. and i think i got 2 or 3 wrong. While checking, Mr Chua kept peeking over. So anyway, when I was done, I asked him to check my physics part. and i got TWO wrong.
My studyingmethod works. Sadly, o levels are over, and it is no longer valid for use.
(I plan when i want to study. like i said I'll freak out at 10pm; and i did)

okay. we took nice pictures. I'll post them when I get them from kayla.
That's in a weeks time. When my birthday comes. When kayla,elaine and Olivia sleeps over!
We're gonna do fun stuff. See if we can work later on that day or something! :)
OKAY. off, off, off.

PS: I love my rabbit. she's so soft and cute. and cuddly. AHH. I don't understand how i could have overlooked this for 2 years.

Setting aside that,
I'm done learning Kayla's song. Its a nice song.
I just have to tweak it a little more.
Its by MCR. Not anything anyone could imagine me singing.
I got her something. I miss Kayla. I have not had a friend who i used to hate, (and gradually, year by year, got on better terms.) and finally, here we are, GOOD FRIENDS, for one whole year. And well, she's leaving. and I'll miss her. She's always my partner when we get into register order. Well, I hope my papa will let me send her off even though her flight timing is in the very unsafe hours of morning.
Well, tomorrow tomorrow is our Phy/chem P1. Its our last paper. No more olevels, no more kayla in front of me. No more combined science. No more school. No more many things. I am going to bring my camera, and for the sake of memories, I HOPE IT IS REALLY SUNNY.
And I still want to lie in the middle of the field or parade ground; on the last day, and just take in the melancholy of it all.
Is it me or is this so gloomy? It is.
On the brighter side of things,
We're liberated!
Olivia and I got a job at starbucks! yey, We're so efficient. If you do not believe, go try and get a job at your desired starbucks. See if its so easy. (well, it was for us)
I'm excited. I can make aromatic coffee for my dad soon. Yey.
And imagine making so many coffee-lovers' day. The pure joy of taking a sip off their Mocha latte, decaf; from a pretty little starbucks mug. GREAT.
Then it'll be Japan,Japan,Japan soon!
I'm going to take award-winning photos. (yeah right..)

Now its STUDY.
Olivia is coming over tomorrow.
Cause I'm a good girl, and I choose not to study outside, and spend money on foood.

Talking about spending money,
Rachel and I bought boootts today!
It was such a good deal. Cause they're so PRETTY.
I can't wait to get them.

BYEBYE.

Bunny!

Rabbits are crepuscular right?
I wonder what it's like for my friend to just run around a confined area in the dark.
Imagine we live our day in darkness, and our night in light. Wouldn't it be strange?
Tonight, I had the urge to leave the lights on for Princess, but i didn't.
(I want to put a picture up, but I'm too lazy to get the camera, so tomorrow,perhaps)

P.S: This is a queer blog post, just ignore it.

Boredom.

Its sooner than expected, but I'm already going insane over scrapbooking stuff.
(And I have not even started working yet)
Wuthering Heights, Wuthering Heights, Wuthering Heights.
That's all i am doing now.
Wuthering Heights at night, Sleep, Wake Up, Eat, Wuthering Heights in the morning on the bed, doze off accidentally, Wake up, Wuthering Heights after 'nap'.
This is somewhat a sneak preview to my after-examinations life, and I am not so exhilarated one bit about it.
I'm gonna take up my phy/chem notes once i get home later. Then maybe I'll find some excitement for the exams to be over! Otherwise, it's back to Wuthering Heights again.
And believe it, I'm only on Pg88. The print is so small, you'll go blind if you don't take myopic precautions!

I need my fix of scrapbooking or something. I am looking forward to my Japan trip, and yet, I wish it won't come so soon, so I have time to finish the following:
1. Earn some $
2. Be abit better in my photography
3. Knit/crochet a scarf for myself
4. Revive my Fuji instax; just for fun. (its my first 'nonsense' camera, afterall)
5. Start revising my Japanese. /:

I'm quite contented with our D100 camera, so I think I might not buy a new camera, this doesn't mean that I don't have enough money, cause I know i do. My math is not that bad, and I take poa, so i can calculate my financial abilities. (why, i am not sounding defensive am i?)


"My love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath: a source of little visible delight, but necessary."
I cannot get over Catherine's insensibility. SO SELFISH. (reading the quote won't help you to understand the story, so go read itt.)

DOLL.

I decided to spread some joy to you guys, since i do get some joy out of this picture.
1. Embrace the Doll without a body
2. Kiss the doll without a body
3. Laugh at the doll without a body
4. Scream, cause the doll doesnt have a body

Sorry, you again, do not understand my complex mind. (Haha, just kidding, don't get offended.)


credits to picture: Olivia's camera; Elaine; Denise's doll; Vivien

FT ISLAND WAS IN SINGAPORE YESTERDAY! (or is?) ):<
i am so annoyed right now.
Hongkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!
i bet all their hardcore fans kept it low-profile so they can have FT island to themselves.
whatever, i don't care, i am an upright person, and i shall only read classic novels. (lol)

For relieving-myself-from-stress purposes, i am going to blog a list of things i want to do, after the exams.

1. Work for money (haha, i almost said: work for reward, reward for work.)
2. Paint a collection of canvases.
3. Japanese/korean drama marathon @ my house with Olivia, Elaine and Kayla!
4. Finish reading as many classics as possible!
5. Listen to my new YUI/NEWS Cds.
6. Compose a song. (and successfully sing it to kayla. what a stupid pact we made. i regret.)
7. Win my evil holga.
8. Tennis. TENNIS.
9. Outing with my tennis friends :D
10. Give Kayla a heart-warming farewell (TO AMERICA ): )
11. Photography.
12. Play under the rain. I've always wanted to do that. ALWAYS.
13. Study my Japanese, and prepare for the exam.
14. Fill up my stupid empty sketchbook.
15. Wait impatiently for results.

update!update!
I'm sick of studying!
There is one more last serious paper!
So i told myself, i'm going to study it once and for all after a shorty little blog post. Hurray to the girl who realizes this!
I'm very sorry if you cannot understand me these few days. My mind, its a little wonked.
So anyway, after a few approvals, I am going to spend my secret stash of money on a new Nikon DSLR. You all think i'm so poor, but i have been secretly saving up. Muahaha, be afraid. Well, ok, not really, I'm going to work after exams, so if i add that to my savings, then it'll be enough.
And i finally figured out why my holga pictures are so ugly! everybody, lets give me three cheers! Well, it'll all be figured out by my Japan trip. Then I can take with both my DSLR and holga. But of course the former will come first.
Okay, i still have like a gazillion chapters so, SEE YA.
Oh yeahh, i also caught up with Su Yen via email. yey. I hope she comes to singapore soon. Then i can meety-meet her.
My new plan is that if i cannot get into NJC because of its ridiculously low cut-off, i am going to either go to Lasalle or TP. I am more keen on TP though. I'm gonna take Visual com, and opt for the photography option. Right on! then its like completely no worries, cause i think its quite easy to get in. (don't laugh if i suddenly cant get in)
"STUDY VIVIEN. "
okay, i'll study.
i took a cute video of my brother.
speaking of which,
HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NICKY WICKY,
you are 18 in three or four hours time, and guess what?
closer to the ARMY.
I've decided to watch the video when you're gone ),:
I miss you, in advance!
LOVE YOU.
(insert picture of vivien and her brother here)

I DONT HAVE A COPY RIGHT NOW, SO JUST WAIT.

oh yey, i'm almost sixteen. :) its kinda cool if you can celebrate it with your sister. (:

EXAMINATION PERIOD!

thought I'd update a little!

I am taking O Levels in STRIDE.
The scarier papers are slowly coming. (or does the passing days just bring us to them?)
Whatever, i guess they'll all be over really soon.


There is truth to set me free.
I know you're there, and i wish you'd talk to me.
I try to listen, maybe not hard enough, but i can't hear anything.
how do they hear you?
how do i hear you?
i really want to know, will you let me know?

(:

"exit, push, handle.."
HAHAHAHA.

I hope to finish art, really really soon!
Believe it or not, o levels start next THURSDAY! (for phy/chem) ):

Today is a happy day!
I ate ice cream! (:

Don'tbesad. It'll soon be over..

Today is a picture thing.
Random group shot!

(Olivia looks really greedy. haha!)
Lunch was yummy :)
I am currently drawing (and colouring?)
It takes me 249754572480 days to finish my flower. Since last thursday ):

Bloody sunday?

My sister and I went to SICC to study for awhile.
Then they told us we weren't allowed to write, only READ.
This makes me extremely annoyed. Cause I studied this week, and no one told me to stop.
So anyway, we were being pigs, and we ordered food.
When we ordered, Rachel was like, "uh, can we have a chocolate eclair, one black forest cake, one coffee eclair, and one apple crumble." (And i was laughing)
We seemed so greedy! I think it made the waiter want to laugh.

(I CANT UPLOAD THE PICTURE.)
Ok, I'm gonna go study some more. BYE.

Study time!

OK, I am studying like crazy from just now onwards!
I am confident,
I can do it.
We all can.
So let's.
Ok, I don't like reading blogs that talk about studying.
So let me say one final thing about studies.
I am going to study at SICC next week. Cause it's boring there, and I'll end up studying.

My papa said something funny yesterday, but i can't remember what it was.

there's nothing much really, left to say.
I'll miss my friends.
I miss tennis trainings.
I miss the tennis team.
I miss the tennis courts.

I miss the outings we used to have.
I miss everything to do with them!

My braces is officially off.
I won't comment on how I look.
TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
why does time pass so fast?
I am lazy, and i don't want to make anything for anyone.
It will be ugly and slipshot because i am tired.
But no matter what, mabel gets something.

I'll miss her awfully.
We all move on, but she gets left behind.
I hate the idea of that.
Look! The last time i had one of those friends forever key rings, it was with Suyen.
(I don't even know where she is now, maybe thailand?)
Whatever.

GOOD NIGHT!

crazy,excited,stressed, etc.

This is my last dinner with braces on (I'm so dramatic about the whole thing)
So i decided to snap pictures using my handphone.
The food was good :)
I went to macdonalds tostudy with Elaine, Kayla and Olivia.
It is considered productive, but i was VERY tired.
When i went home. I didnt study at all. \:( -again, i have a new smiley, so dont copy.

"Mummy cheezee!" (show off her new watch.)

I said, "cool mirror! I want to take a picture!"
Nicholas said nothing, but stared at me like this : -.-
(i secretly take a picture)
Vivien says,"Nicholas!come! take picture with me!"
Nicholas replied,"Noo, don't wanttt!"
Mummy exclaimed,"Haha, look at him grinning!"
Rachel (i dont know what), "MY TURN!"
Vivien said," Too bad, my handphone, i wont help you!"
Rachel cried out, "Hey! I helped you to take your picture!"
Nicholas said,"i dont wanntt!"
Vivien snapped a shot.

--END--
PS:Don't you think my brother looks like a korean?

PPS:i give up!

braces

Oh my gosh, my braces is off in two days. TWO DAYS!
(I hope i look good, or i'm gonna wear retainers all the time- although i'm supposed to.)

I am crazy over LIBERA. oh, they are so good!

I should sleep, yes i should. (i'm hungry, and that's a sign.)

Happy childrens day (ten mins early) to all the HAPPY children in the world. Enjoy it while you still can, cause when you turn 16, you are gonna be miserable and stressed up.

OK. bye.(oh yeah, MISS HOE GAVE US A PENCIL EACH.)

I can do it!

I'm studying a lot, here and now.
I don't like studying at home, cause it is so distracting.
Whatever. I don't have much to blog about anyway.
I just basically studied the day away.
I don't want to talk about my depressing results. (hyperbole, please don't think i did THAT bad.)



I miss Olivia,
but I'm not talking to her, she's just there, but Somehow, i choose not to do it.

Mad. (as in angry, mad)

Ok, Actually, i'm not angry. I just feel like saying i'm angry.
But I'm not.

Went out with Olivia and Elaine for lunch today, then we went to daiso (and i spent money on baking stuff) my knee killed me today. (this is a hyperbole. means, i didn't actually die, but my knee, it hurt like hell -another hyperbole. Ok, i'm being irritating. my knee was very[?] painful.)
So, anyway, out of 10, i give myself 1. And the "1" mark itself is a pity mark. This is regarding my studying, i think i cannot study here. so i am gonna attempt to ask if i can study tmr. (outsidE)

bye. (I DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE.)

( }: moustache smiley. (copyrighted, cause I CREATED IT.)

Tired, exausted, and in pain.

Once again, dinner conversation was funny.

Nicholas: Oh! mummy, can ask kaka to fry cod fish?
Mummy: (Reading book)
-pause-
Mummy: Huh?
Nicholas: You know, like the spaghetti place? they fry the cod fish with salt and black pepper?
Mummy: ok.
Nicholas:ok, thanks.
-silence-
Mummy: Ok, ok, i buy cod fish lah!
(everyone laugh, cause she suddenly answer the question that was already answered)
Nicholas: Mummy, you're very funny!
Mummy: correct what! you want to eat cod fish right?
Papa: you know, mummy is the only woman i know, that when she walks on the street, people will stop her and tell her she's beautiful.
Mummy: Dont have laa..
Papa: yeah! yeah, its true! Like Aunty Jade's(neighbour) son told her that, "aunty, you're very pretty."
Mummy: Don't have laa..
nicholas, rachel and I:(pause)
Nicholas, rachel, vivien: HUH? but Aunty Jade doesn't have a son!
Papa: Oh, is it? OHOH, Aunty Sapphire(also referring to neighbour)! nono, Aunty diamond lah, aunty diamond. (non-existent neighbour)
everyone: HAHAHAH.
Papa: Even the american guy (referring to some business man)told me, "hey, you married a SUPERMODEL."
Mummy: don't have lah, that guy just tell you that cause to him, you're the Goddess of Money.
-everyone stops-
everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
mummy: God, God. I mean God.
Papa: (start to act gay, HAHA. but i forgot what he said)

Ok, maybe it is not that funny if you read it here.
I'm waiting for monday.
We're gonna submit our art olvl coursework, then we're gonna have ICE CREAMMM.
I missed training today, cause of my leg.
It's extremely painful today. After i washed it with antiseptic water, and applied a (somewhat) thick layer of dettol cream in school. But whatever, I feel more consoled that its healing.

I'm taking off my braces next thursdayyyy! (:
Time passes so fast.

push ugly thoughts to the back of your mind

Today is a depressing day.
Especially when it got to the end of the day. Cause so many bad things happened.
During mother tongue lesson, i made olivia REALLY mad. Cause i broke her drawing crayon pencil thing. Then i tried to make it better by cracking lame jokes about breaking it. Apparently it made it worse. (i'm bad at this) (oh yeah,later on, adina was like: you look flustered. olivia ignores her. adina: I SAID, you look flustered! olivia ignores her again. I think to myself, you;re being stupid to say that kind of things. then suddenly, SHE FANS olivia with her paper. haha, and i start laughing, uncontrollably. but i think to myself: I'm an actress, I'm an actress, and I regain composure.)
After that, i didnt feel like studying at the learning lab anymore, so i wanted to go home, and i called my mummy. And, she asked me to call my sister (Cause my sister was at the bus stop already) so i did that, but my sister did not want to be fetched cause she felt bad. Then I said ok and hung up, but inside, i was really irritated, cause by the time i reached the bus stop, I would have missed MY bus. So annoyed, i walked past the stairs leading to the back of the hall. Then, i was talking to Jesus (that's what I do) and the conversation went like this:
"Why don't you just punish me for breaking Olivia's pencil, and make me miss my bus. Then I can make my sister feel bad about it, and olivia will forgive me." (so angry.)
And just as i said this. i fell.
I usually dont fall. But i fell.
And it wasn't a graze, it was like, WOAH.
I quickly get up, and i look at my wound, and, there is this big oval of white.
I felt disgusted and upset, cause my leg will have a big scar.
I walked back to the toilet, and Natalie accompanied me, only thing is that i was so irritated, i walked faster than her.
Then by the time i got to the bus stop, i was feeling sad and angry. Cause I don't want my leg to be scarred, and i felt irritated that i said such a lousy prayer. so i sniffed. (you can't consider this as crying.) But anyway, this primary school girl i think? she saw me, and she thought i was crying over the wound. and she was looking at me like i can't tolerate pain. well just so you know, i can. I CAN. Then i went up the bus, and everyone was looking at me, and i dont know what they were thinking. but i walked very clumsily, cause i didnt want to touch the handles (dirty) but i had a bad leg. so i couldnt walk properly.
Listened to Vienna boys.
Then I called my sister to apologize for hanging up. (i messaged but she didnt reply)
BAD DAY.
oh well, in the end, olivia forgave me(yey), and my sister and mummy ended up feeling really bad because they think they're to blame for my ugly wound. and I ended up feeling bad that they felt bad, cause it wasnt their fault.
ironies of LIFE.

IN SPITE, ><

Iam totally impressed with my baking skills.
I'm so self-obsessed, but who cares!
So, i baked chocolate chip cookies yesterday. I made two pacts with Olivia, one is that i will bake cookies if we go study today (so that we can eat while we're at it), the other is that i will make her NOT eat at the cafe in the library (cause oh my gosh, the food is so good)
Then I told elaine to come too. (and kayla, but as usual she is BUSY. busybody. haha, good joke)
So i baked yesterday. But the cookies were only revealed to Elaine, Olivia, and Kayla (and me), after school. This is selfish, but we need to protect our cookies until study time. HAHA. If you're sad, indulge in the picture!
Unglam shot of Olivia. (she looks like old woman; liang po po)

Elaine is sad ):Then the cookies are FINISHED. We studied a short while more, then olivia had to go for tuition, so we left, and i'm here now, blogging. (after guitar lesson-i was falling asleep, cause my teacher showed me how to play some songs, and i was tired.)
TEE-SHIRT, TEE-SHIRT. yey. yey. yey.

it somehow annoys us, and yes. it does.

Art was fun.

Today, I stayed back for art.
I still somewhat sort-of refuse to do my colour scheme.
I did it before, but its like here and there, i want to do another one, but i refuse to do it?
So, anyway,
I told camilla that she must finish her canvas painting by tomorrow, or she'll owe me
1x MCSUNDAE
1x Honey milk tea with pearls.
actually, it was one more tea, but we went to island creamery after art, and she paid me one fifty (this one is not because of punishment, its cause i bought her bubble tea that time)
Camilla is very funny,
and she laughs at what i say. (when people say its lame)
So i like her.
For example
-on the topic of mr. Anthony and his lollipop/ why alot of people had lollipops-
Camilla: (asks the lollipop question)
Me: cause Mika gave it to them.
-everyone pauses to think-
Me: You know? (sings)"Sucking too hard on your lollipop, oh, love's gonna get you down?"
Camilla: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Jane: -.-
Camilla:(looks at Jane) YOU DONT GET IT?

haha.
Ok, I AM GONNA STUDY MATH.
Miss Lim is capable of making me nervous. BYE.

Fruits tastes good.

I feel cheated and used.
oh well, life's like that isn't it?

So, today, we got back our POA paper one and our physics component for paper one.
and, i did well. So I'm in a good mood.

What's more, my mummy bought dresses for me, and my sister.
I love my mummy, she knows our tastes. :)
I love my daddy cause he paid like $760 for them, and he was the one who told my mum to buy stuff for us!

So anyway, during art, i completed my artist statement, in one hour. And this took me very long to set my heart to it, but in an hour, I'm done.

I like my parents way of running the family.
We eat dinner together every night, and we have fruits too, after that.

This post is very jumpy and disorientated.
During english, we went to the library. And i got a little annoyed. Cause i just finished my book yesterday. I have another book to read, but i didnt bring it.
So anyway, i re-read digital fortress. I know how i dont re-read books, but this is an exception, because i completely cannot recall what it is about, only that Strathmore turned out to be a bad guy, and susan's name is susan, and that it has an impeccable plot.

OFF TO FRUITS, before they vanish.

One last practical paper.

Draw your curtains and take a peek,
The moon is special tonight.
But incase you are stuck inside, and cannot look at it, this is what it looks like. (now its without the clouds, but I'm too lazy to take a new one.)

Yesterday, We passed our golf handicap test, and we only played three holes out of nine.
Jesus was on my side. Yey to that.
Cause then i somewhat had more time to study for Phychem and prepare for art P2.

Today was finally over, and Olivia, Elaine, Kayla (a huge first time), and I went to coro and then out for macdonalds. On the way to coro, I was practicing Japanese with my ipod. Then at mcdonalds (or is it MAC donalds?) I wanted to have McSundae. Chocolate flavour. You can say its my favourite ice cream. Cheap taste but whatever. But when i finally finished my food, the ice cream was FINISHED. Then I was a little sad, but nevermind.

I have a bad throat today. Its not painful, but i sound horrible. I think its like Ramya's last time sick voice. Its funny, cause we made her say a pick up line cause her voice was so sexy. haha. not that my voice is sexy. Its not, cause Olivia kept asking me to stop talking. But of course I didnt.

WE HAVE ONE LAST PRACTICAL PAPER TO THE END OF PRELIMS.

Titles always give me problems.

i want to change blog, but then i want to win my previous blog that has 167 posts in it. This one has 87. Gosh, how did i do it?

The second half of Prelims is a quindecillion times better than the first half.
1. I studied a lot harder (and fell sick in the process, and i'm still falling- haha. if you get me.)
2. I think i did better than the first half, which means my marks are all pulled up.

(this sounds freaky, since its not the first time saying it, but) I LOVE MY SISTER, alot. being in the same room with her, it makes us get a lot closer. She's fun to be with, and i regret not finding out many years earlier. She has a weird collection of Marie items. or much rather, her-collecting Marie items is weird.
AND SHE THINKS I'M WEIRD- i won't even say why. or else you might think i'm weird.

3. I have confirmed the BEST WAY to memorize my work. Like its an absolute thing. It never fails you. But BLAME MY SISTER, she thinks i'm weird cause of my way of memorizing things, so i'm not telling you-or you'll think i'm weird. haaa.[ok, enough of this weird thing]

whatever. here's to updating.
CHEERS.


-edit-
OKAY, TELL ME I LIKE THE SAME KIND OF GUYS.
so, here's the story(papa, please ignore this.)
First, I like Tegoshi Yuya. He is Japanese.
(left)
He can sing well and likes to play soccer.




Then, when a korean crazy person and I clash,
You get me half-liking a korean.
Lee Hongki.
He can sing well, and he likes soccer, also. (not that i like soccer or anything,)
Ah, and knock me, he can cook!
And please don't tell me he's better looking.
Cause my future is already planned out.Excuse me, but what the heck,
I am no longer investing any of my time in these two individuals who don't know me. At all.
(and i, too, don't know them)
but just for the record, i like guys who sing- well.
And i don't like playing soccer, cause i'm scared i'll get kicked or something.
(but i like the idea of soccer.)

On a lighter note

I LOVE MY PAPA.
he is very funny.

on the way to dinner today,

Turning into C.H.I.J.M.E.S
Papa: ...then you see all these tricycle riders, think they own the road!
-silence-
Nicholas: papa, its trishaw, not tricycle

Going into carpark
Papa (winds down window to pay for the parking)
Papa (shouts): EXCUSE ME, YOUR PARKING FEE IS VERY EXPENSIVE.
nicholas: huh! you pressed the button to talk to them? (referring to white button to press for help)
Mummy: no lah! never press.
Papa: heh. heh. heh.

hahahahaha. ok. done. SLEEP. i'll post a picture tomorrow.

It's currently 1:13 am.
I'm tired, I'm irritated, and I wish I could do things I want to.
I realise that when I actually do get to do things I want to do, it almost immediately becomes insignificant in contributing in anyway to my sense of accomplishment.
Then I'll go missing the whole idea of "studying your head off."
But when you're studying now, oh how boring and annoying it can get.
You'd do anything for anything else.
This goes the same for any other thing.
When its this, you want that.
When you get that, you want something different.
Nothing satisfies your wants. Ever.
Are we really so selfish? Yes. and deep down, YES.
We can get everything we wanted yesterday and still be wanting more today.
The truth in it all makes me frustrated.
I can tell myself that it won't happen again, but it will.
I can't accept people for who they are;
I pick on their faults,I don't accept their faults, I can't stand it
At the same time, there are problems with myself too, yet i go on with my life without a single twitch.
So badly i want to stop trying to be perfect,
but sometimes, it takes over my subconscious mind, and i can't stop it.
Somewhere in the commotion, my conscious mind fights back something that doesn't exactly exist, and I become the worst person you've ever met.
So don't talk to me, and don't be my friend
cause i'm not here, and i don't exist. (ok, yes i do. but i'm just pissed off, and i want to type this.)

P.S: i am fed up with you, cause suddenly, you don't seem to be our friend anymore. Yet when you're with us, i don't take effort to talk to you. See, I'm selfish. I TOLD YOU. (end of PS)

PSS: I'm upset, so ignore this snappy post, and move on with your life.(end of PSS)

PSSS: I don't mean to be rude to you. (END OF PSSS)

On the way to get our delicious food who(that) was the hero of our stomach(s)' constant cries right up til 3 in the afternoon, olivia, being too hungry, successfully made a conversation funny.

Olivia (ties her fringe)
Vivien (laughs)
Olivia What, this reminds you of how stupid you look when you tie your fringe up
Vivien No, i can pull it off, so i wont look stupid
Olivia THEN PULL IT OFF LAH.
Vivien Huh?
Olivia/ Vivien (pause for one second)
Olivia/Vivien HAHAHAHAHAHA.

well finally, right now, i hope, i can finish my revision. PLEASE.

SUMMER FESTIVAL

SUMMER FESTIVAL
I regret not eating alot, but i didnt feel like eating!
ah well, it was full of regrets anyway!
But it was fun. (:
Olivia and I got the same t-shirt!
Elaine and I preferred _.
Denise and Euphoria left really early.

I feel so stupid for not changing out earlier!
Then maybe i would have eaten!

today was the most tiring day of my life.
i feel very tired.
VERY.
Olivia was being a lala during art after school!
She accidentally called me Rebecca.
Then she admitted that she called me rebecca three times, but i didnt hear.
and i realise olivia and i always have this conversation:

Olivia: I DONT FRIEND YOU!
Vivien: Then i cry ),:
Olivia: YOU STOP IT AH.

her language is so rough that i need to type using CAPITAL LETTERS.
haha!

So, my art is almost done.
And, guess what?
I forgot where i left my prepwork. (this includes five boards filled with prep.)
I am going to secretly search the art room tomorrow, cause miss hoe asked me to bring it tomorrow. but i can't find it at home.

I DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
the irritating part is that the periods on thursdays are VERY not nice, but then there is five periods of art and two free periods! \\:

best day of my life!

Today is such a great day, i have to blog about it!
To start, i got a B4 for my chinese, then for my oral/listening, i got DISTINCTION. oh mama, if you can't tell, i am really happy.
Olivia got the same too, i bet its cause she sits beside me in chinese.
hahahaahahaha!
oh, talking about olivia, SHE BOUGHT ME CHOCOLATE BREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yey.
anyway, back back back, during recess, before they told us our grades, we spotted miss wee in the canteen, so all of us went to crowd around her to ask for our results.
What she told us was that we all passed.
then i was so happy, i jumped up and down, and then, i banged into elaine, who was eating watermelon, then her watermelon dropped.
i just realised i didnt offer to buy another one for her! somean!
After school, we had english orals.
Olivia and Elaine were in different holding rooms, so we wished each other and went off.
Kayla, Denise and I were in the same holding room.
Kayla was second last, and i was the last.
So we waited and waited.
To practice my orals, i chatted with the english teacher that was with us. And i also read passages, and re-described pictures.
Finally, it was my turn, and it started to rain.
But my orals went well!
For my picture, i answered their first question, and when i stopped talking, they said: ok, lets move on to conversation!
Yeyyyyy.
For conversation, i talked about my generous 4-D winning grandmother who is a catholic.
So no problem i guess!
Ok, after that, i went to the art room.

Today, before getting back my results, and before my english orals, i prayed to Jesus!
I know he's the one who helped me!
Anyone can choose to say its how much effort I put in, that i'm able to do well, but i know for myself its not me. It's definitely him.

OH YEAH,

OH!OH!OH!
OLIVIA PROMISED ME CHOCOLATE BREAD, YEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

SNEAK PREVIEW!

This is how my sister and i look like in yuukatas.
We were trying them to prepare for the SUMMER FESTIVAL.
Til then, you're stuck with the back view of us!
So come back in a few weeks time, and you'll catch denise, euphoria and olivia in yuukatas too! (:

today, i think everyone celebrated national day.
it was o.k.
The best thing about the school celebration was Harvard din&tonics came to perform.
We got environmental bags for our national day sovenir.

Later, i went out with Elaine and Olivia! : D
WE ATE PASTA MANIA, OLIVIA'S FAVOURITE.
Ok, it was nice.
Later, Olivia and Elaine bought some clothes.
And i ate again. I ate chocolate bread with olivia. IT WAS SO GOOD. i am going to ask her to buy for me everyday now. I regret not buying more!
GRR.
Later, Elaine and i went to swee lee to get my CAPO. We do not know how to pronounce it. \: The lady told us, and we forgot. so we still dont know whether its (cap- poh) or (ka-poh)
Then we walked to bugis to get her jacket.
And then i decided to go home, cause i didnt know how you go back to school from there.
When i went home, i caught the first half an hour of grey's anatomy (:
Then I left for school, to do art.
GUESS WHAT. THE DOOR=LOCKED.
Theni was unhappy cause i missed half an hour of grey's anatomy. (this is the first season by the way)
I took a bus back. and i skipped training.
THE end.
It was a veryy tiring day!

4th august 2008

Actually, I think it's very obvious, this truth, its just that no one wants to admit it.

Today, i had FOUR free periods.
I wasted two of them laughing and chatting with charite and nicolette.
Charite is really really really very funny.
The other two were spent wisely, revising for my physics test.
Which by the way, i think was o.k.

I learnt how to cook japanese style chicken rice yesterday during japanese class with my sister and brother!
Mine looked the best.
I'm very proud, because i thought mine would look the ugliest.

I want all of my test papers back, now.

Sometimes, i wonder if I can ever be more disciplined.

ON TENNIS

I realised i haven't blogged about tennis in awhile so,
here's to all the federer fans out there.
NADAL IS ABOUT TO BE WORLD NUMBER ONE!
YEY.

although i do feel sorry for federer.
But that's just the way it goes right?

Accomplished?

I finally got down to packing my desk. (the picture won't rotate)

I think i'm a super packer when I want to study.
I pack when i suddenly feel irritated everything is messy.

I went to SAJC's open house today.
We attended the principal's talk, it was very very boring.
I don't usually look at my nails, but i did.
Then i feel mean because when they ask for my ic, i said that i didnt bring (true), so they asked for my NRIC and i told my sister to tell them hers.
ok, that doesn't sound very mean.

Yesterday, Mabel sent me to the place where i usually get a cab to go to my training.
We talked.
When i finally got a cab, the cab driver just finished smoking, or something.
i don't like the smell of cigarettes.
and i don't understand how anyone could even get close to those things.
yucks.
Sometimes, when i look at smokers i notice they purposely blow into your face,so i use my hand to wave very wildly, just to get back at them. So bad right.




STUDY.

Oh yeah!today, during dinner, we had this conversation:

Papa: Ok, who is going to taka tomorrow? If you have exams to study for then nevermind.
Mummy: Exams are never ending!
Papa: ok, then everyone just go, rest abit. We are modern parents. right mummy?
nicholas: What do you mean?
Papa: We don't cane or beat you just because you don't study.
mummy: Yeah, if you don't study, its your problem. You know you are a student, it's your job to study. Who will care if you don't care?

Haha. i don't know how i can remember!

OH! AND EUPHORIA UPLOADED A PICTURE OF ME WITH A MONKEY PARTY UCHIWA. This is egoistic of me, but i think i qualify to be a japanese student.

Photo taken by: Euphoria
Hair done by: Olivia
Uchiwa: Monkey party
Clothes: St. Margaret's p.e attire
Model: Vivien

blah.

I had hives this morning.
Before anyone jumps to a conclusion that it's some contagious disease, its not.
It's just some horrible rash thing that you get from an allergic reaction.
It will go away after awhile, but it might come back.

So, again, somehow, and coincidentally, i missed thursday's math lesson.

In the afternoon, i took a nap that was supposed to be half an hour, but ended up waking up two and a half hours later. Its 12am now, and i am feeling wide awake, so i shall go and study, soon! (:

And, i think i'm pshychic.

And i feel a little weird today. cause its not like i want it to happen. and why is everyone being so unfriendly. And i'm for sure, never going back.

My latest obsession is with this song by franz ferdinand.
VERSE:
Eleanor put those boots back on
Kick the heels into the Brooklyn dirt
I know it isn't dignified to run
But if you run, you can run to the
Coney Island roller coaste
Ride to the highest point
And leap across the filthy water
Leap until the gulf stream's brought you down
Mmmmm-hmmmm
CHORUS:
I could be there when you land
I could be there when you land
VERSE:
So Eleanor take a Greenpoint three-point(???)
Turn towards the hidden sun
You know you are so elegant when you run
Oh if you run, you can run
To that statue with the dictionary
Climb to her fingernail
And leap yeah! take an atmospheric
Leap and let the jet stream set you down
Mmmm-hmmm
CHORUS
I could be there when you land
I could be there when you land
I could be there when you land
So Eleanor put those boots back on
Put those boots back on the ground and run
Come on over here
Come on over here
Come on over here

IRRITATED.

i am very irritated, as my title suggests.
I CANNOT LOG INTO MY HOTMAIL ACCOUNT.
because: the window's live ID you entered does not exist or is incorrect.
This is already quite upsetting.
So, i go to submit my email for forgotten password, and they say that information on it will be sent to my email.
HELLO! I LOST MY PASSWORD HOW TO LOG IN TO MY EMAIL!?!!?!?!?!
HOW TO RESET MY PASSWORD?!!?!?!?!

i am going to study.

Restless!

Today is an EXTREMELY long day.
It is now 10:38, and i feel like its 1am already.
This is the first time i have to take coffee to keep myself awake.
And, this morning, when my mummy woke me up, i was pushing her away. haha!

On a lighter note, i did half a page on my new sketch book (:
This makes me happy.

I HAVE WASTED A TOTAL OF 4HRS TODAY.
see, like that, i could have done a chapter of ss.
I dislike my ill-disciplined self.
I PLAN TO STAY UP TILL 3AM. YES.

note: I was a little emotional today, and i cried over a small matter, which was quite embarrassing. grrr.

I am studying.

This blog post contradicts its title.
On friday, there was speech day. See, I'm on stage, bowing.
I thought that the school only gave out certificates, but I went home and found $50 worth of kinokuniya vouchers in the envelope! (:
I spent it today. (part of it went to Olivia lim.)

I went to Olivia's church yesterday.
Thank you papa! (I know you'll see this.)
I had fun, I think.
As in i am sure of it, but i'm not sure if its called fun?
I hope i can be there again. If possible.

Lets all enjoy stress until we miss it one day.
This is one of the pictures we took in KL in June.
my brother refuses to smile. so.
(and once more, i have to mention how tanned i am.grrr.)

WIMBLEDON, NOT A LET DOWN!

NADAL IS WINNING, 2 SETS TO LOVE.
HE IS SO SO GOOD.
LIKE REALLY.

WIMBLEDON

Ah, wimbledon is a let down!
the william sisters are in the finals!
Federer and nadal too, again in the finals!
I am quite sure NADAL will win this, cause he's so good.
(yes, my impression changed)
OK, as of now, i will do my art so that i can do my other subjects, soon.
I am going to the primary school funfair with my sister tomorrow, then to orchard! fun!
Ok, so, that's it?


I want to be a kid again, even if it's for one day.

100% commitment?

Oh, i finally have the time to update this blog!
I don't even have the time to watch Wimbledon!
I had to hear that DJOKOVIC lost to MARAT SAFIN. (not so happy)
Well, a lot of things happened, but most of the time, I'm just doing art.
Today, miss hoe was in a funny mood. Like really. (good thing)
One thing that happened was, that we were trying to break the mirror in the morning with a hammer, but it didn't work, then in the afternoon, when she was just doing it for fun, she really broke it!
I have many pictures that i'd like to upload, but i don't know where the pictures are.
So, I'll just go off worrying about my POA test that is on tuesday,
and that art deadline,which is on Monday.
ho-ho!
This expression (Gyabo! Mukyaa!) reminds me that I've officially finished Nodame Cantabile.
It's a nice anime turned drama!
I'd recommend it to anyone. But i wouldn;t really lend you mine, its too precious.
Oh, and yesterday during chapel, when i heard that there's no such thing as a 50-50 World/Jesus thing, I felt disappointed. Cause I think I'm one of those people who kind of gets attached to the world with crazy goals. So I've decided to throw them away, well sort of. As in I'd do things cause i like them, not cause I want to? Ok, not making sense. This is too much thinking, so goodnight.

♥To:Mabel!

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY MABEL LAU!
Thank you for being there always, unless you're SLEEPING.
☼ you're like the sun.
(just wanted to use the sun icon!)
Hope all your DREAMS come TRUE.
maybe i shall post my text message here since i CANT SEND IT!
Dearest mabel! Happy 16th birthday! :)
thank you for always being there when i call you(unless you are sleeping) haha!
you are a very good friend, and i love you alot!
I will never ever forget that you are very nice to talk to! :)
you are so funny and lazy at the same time.
Stay very pretty forever and i pray that your boyfriend will be very hot.
So next time i want to see a hot guy, i just have to call you. haha!
And and! happy birthday again! :):):) ps, you look good in the --------- --------. and haha!
your budget was the HIGHEST.
woohoo:)
and your welcome! (for the thank you for the present)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
LOVEYA LOADS!

I miss Denise!

I've been going to school every day for art. (elaine and olivia too!) 

Although it's only tuesday, I forget when was the last time i saw Denise!

She doesn't take art, so I've not seen her.

Just now, she messaged me! (and i messaged her back)

We both miss each other!

Miss hoe gave me a Lollipop, and she offered me three pieces of gum, but i only took one.

And I found out how far Arlene can hit the golf ball with an iron. 

(this is a weird piece of information, but i figured since it took me quite awhile to get it out of her, it is worth blogging about.)

I watched a documentary on FEDERER (haha! a documentary!) yesterday.

I finally see how good he actually is, breaking records and all those stuff.

I think if Federer reads my blog, he'll say its about time.

But now, i kind of admire him for his mental strength.

and, NADAL WAS IN HIS DOCUMENTARY. HA-HA!

they introduced him this way: but in tennis, there's always a nemesis.

hilarious!

Anyway, it is suddenly clear to me that no one knows me well enough to judge me, except my Parents and Jesus/God (in my opinion) If you're not one of these people, don't judge me, cause i won't accept what you say. Simply because you don't understand me, even if you think you do. 

I don't need to tell you my reasons for doing things.

6-1, 6-3, 6-0
Nadal trashes Federer in this amazingly quick three setter.
then, i suddenly feel bad for wanting Federer to lose. ):

well, that's it then, no more Roland Garros til 2009, and when it comes again, we'll all say that time's passed so fast and it has been a year!

Just when i thought those traits were gone, it surfaced oh-so-evidently.
It's not possible is it, to hide oil in water?
So it must be difficult to hide your true personality in your heart,
because when you do it so well even you forget,
the only barrier you face is time.

I realize the near-impossibility of redemption.

Our sentosa outing is postponed!

ha-ha!

Anyway, I had dinner at lei garden last night!

Then, i watched the ANA IVANOVIC vs DINARA SAFINA match.

It was a good match, obviously ANA IVANOVIC won!

6-4,6-3

YEY. 

have to do my art now, BYE.

FRENCH OPEN!

DJOKOVIC, DJOKOVIC, DJOKOVIC,
LOST.

no! I wanted him to win okay!
It's cause i had my training at 7 so when the match started and i was not there, he lost TWO SETS.
Then cause i watched, he caught up, but then because i went into a daydream about switching bodies or something (? i dont know how i did that) he lost!
OK, but you know,
Declaration to HYONA(if you're reading this): NADAL IS GOOD ONLY ON CLAY OK.
ok,he's good, cause! cause! he can hit super super hard/fast on CLAY. and, He can run so fast!
there was this point, where he almost retrieved a net shot- like most people would only be at half court, but he was at the net.
Maybe i sound alien to some.
ANYWAY, I SUPPORT NADAL IF FEDERER GETS IN. I DON'T LIKE FEDERER AT ALL.
HE IS A BORING PERSON.

yesterday, Olivia, Elaine, and I went to Denise's house! (:
Her cat is so cute! Like ryoma's cat (from prince of tennis)
So, before going there, we went to all the shops near her house, and we bought bubble tea, and also, we bought matching water bottles, cause they were going at 3 for $5. then we bought one more at $2, and split the cost. Then later, we went to get cookie mix. Cause olivia had to bake for her church outreach (she's the FOOD I/C. HAHAHAHA) and i got one packet too!
And we baked at her house.
My cookies are YUMMY and GOOD LOOKING(:
olivia's cookies are YUMMY and UGLY LOOKING ):
Ok, I wont criticize her, cause she did her best!

Tomorrow, i'm going to sentosa with my cousins.
We have never gone out on an outing together!

I should not have forgotten thatBeatrice & Melanie are my good friends.
the other day, beatrice and i jumped into the swimming pool after throwing a canned drink. It was very very fun, It was also the first time i jumped into the pool with my normal clothes on :D

one more thing, MISS MABEL LAU, YOU ARE WICKED. I CANNOT WAIT TO GO OUT WITH YOU ON TUESDAY! SEEYOU!

ANA IVANOVIC VS SAFINA
ANA IVANOVIC will DEFINITELY WIN.
I'm absolutely, 100% certain of this. serbians rule the tennis world.(ok, talking rubbish already)
BYEBYE!

BAKAMONO.

I've just come back from tennis. (:
But i'm so lonely that i practiced by myself for about one hour and ten mins.
Then my sister played with me. She plays defensive shots.
So, i practice my killing on defensive shots.
But a blister formed, so i wasn't really whacking.
guess what? my blister is a blood blister!
Even ramya doesn't want to play with me, but at least that's cause she has five trainings a week, if she plays with me, she'll go crazy.
I am going to ask mabel! (I didnt ask her before cause she's so lazy! I know you're reading this! :D)

Actually, i knew that you both were playing without telling anyone from the start. Finding out was just a snap coincidence, but at first, i thought it was because i went to get my guitar instead of playing with you all, only to be mistaken.
When you couldn't get a court, i knew, you looked for me, only because it was your last resort. i could tell, i could! But i still agreed because i wanted to play with someone too, since when was i left out?
In front of me, you try to act friendly, but deep inside, you really want to win me, don't you?
But i still thought that if i lend you my court, then maybe you'd ask me along the next time, but by the time that one hour was up, i knew it was something different altogether. (those glances you threw at each other! am i not mistaken?)
Today, when i asked you whether you have been playing everyday, you refused to open up. Why is it that when i left, you waved me off so readily? In that position, would you have replied?
I'd still help willingly, but won't compete, instead do my best!

NOT TRUE!NOT TRUE!

I must study, NOW.

I am now messaging Xing Ting.
I've not talked to her for a long, long, long time.
VERY.
We are talking about getting into a JC using DSA. (i am not using the word DSA-ing)
Sometimes, i feel so stupid for going back to tennis.
Cause it'll make me tanned again. I'll never reach my goal of becoming my original fairness. (ok, i think its late, and i need some sleep. ha-ha!)
I cannot really exactly wait for english orals tomorrow, i practiced and practiced, so i should be ok(:
I should really do my math now!
BYEBYE!

(Le corda doro)?

I've been doing chinese for the past few weeks.
I am either tired of it, or attached to it.
i don't really know, cause i don't really feel like doing it anymore,
but then if i stop, i feel like i will miss it.

I took a taxi to training today, after chinese tuition,
And then, i was late. but then, i didn't have to run. (huge grin)

MY PARENTS ARE COMING HOME FROM CHINA. NOW! (:
ohmama, i can't wait for chinese to be over. I'm in this incredible studying mood.

ok, boring post, but its over.
I tell you how irritating guitar picks can be. They just disappear.

JUSTINE HENIN-RETIRED.
I tell you, she deserves a better personal life.
(i am a little slow on this!)



I am determined to do well for my Chinese o'lvls.
I am not going to take it again in nov/dec.

I got my guitar on thursday.
It's pretty,
i have blisters on my fingers now, but i don't mind(:

Mothers day!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY(:
today,
before we had dinner at SICC, my sister and i went to TB plaza. I wanted to get jap movies to get me through tomorrow, but i ended up buying a $15 tinkerbell blanket that is purple in colour. Yes, my favourite colour, i'll learn to love it first. but i like tinkerbell a lot, so yes, i don't care about the colour, it's soft and cuddly! But i'm sending it for dry cleaning first, in case it spoils in the washing machine!
I wanted to buy deathnote(but i also didn't want to, cause its so un-christiany. and my sister told me not to) then, i also wanted to buy Liar game, but my sister(again) told me that my brother had it in his computer. and when i went home, i found out he deleted it ):
but he's going to get that and another thingy, i can't recall!
So, so, so, the dinner at SICC was okay! very filling. I'm going to grow fat very soon! This gives me a reason to train hard at my only tennis training- which is at night, so it won't affect my mission to regain my original and born fairness. :D
we met Clement's girlfriend, Sue Ann. She's very very nice, so i hope that they will be together forever and ever. yes. and she's also pretty. plus her god-father owns island creamery, the yummy ice cream shop!(ok, i dont see how that helps, but still, ISLAND CREAMERY OK!)
ok,look how tan i am!
so, I'm going out with my mummy tomorrow!
I've not gone out with her for a long long time!
We're going to visit a guitar shop too(:
yes, that's all!
I'm going to study a little before i sleep.
un-called for studying is way more fun than studying cause you HAVE to.
I shall not think about my midyear exam papers while i do this. (:<

MYE OVER.

On friday,
we played the arcade machine with the grabbing metal pincer thing, and, we didn't get the Marie cat!
but we played this other can thingy, and after spending $11 dollars, and hitting TWO cans down when you're supposed to hit THREE, the lady agreed to let me have the kitty cat(:
I gave it to my sister. That's why i played in the first place!
But its so soft and nice, i'm almost close to regretting it, but she's so happy(i think) i just leave it at that(:
we played the table soccer thing, what's it called again? floose ball or something.
Let me tell you that Olivia and I s.u.c.k at this, haha! ok, that being said, I suck at it, not Olivia, she got two goals, from using her goal keeper! But we lost still cause one of our men was leg-less.
/:
When the shop opened, I didn't buy anything.
I was just watching NEWS' PVs together with Elaine,
she likes tegoshi, but she can't tell who is who, and keep mixing him up with yamashita. lol!
oh, before all of this, we ate lunch at pasta mania, kayla went too!
but i didn't really eat, cause later on, i had ate YUMMY food at gyu-kaku, oh my gosh!
the food was just great.
(:
after when i got home from Everything, i talked to Mabel on the phone for the first time in a long while.
I couldn't avoid saying this,
Sorry i didn't go out with you, I think it's bad of me to be like that, leaving you alone suddenly. but then i have my own reasons, but i'll tell you why. i will.