I,I,I went to tokyo!

Hello!:)
We're nearing the end of our Japan trip.
It has been fun. loads of shopping.
Very different from Osaka though.
But today, where we went (Kamakura), the place just oozed coziness!
Rlly love that feeling. A vibe that the city doesn't carry at all.
Personally, I prefer& love such places, regardless the amount of time it takes to get there.
It's definitely worth the travel. . .
And I get to indulge in Harry Potter.
o.m.g.
Firqin ,Wanda , Rachel and Evan were right in forcing me to watch the 1st part of the 7th movie in the theatre.
The book is incredible.
+ my kindle
& my mighty-bright light.
Goodness in my hands~~~!

I'm aiming read the 6th book on the plane.
Finish the 5th by tomorrow or something.

And when I get back.
I'm going to fix myself in front of an LCD screen and kill zombies.
excited.

Then I have a camp and then I have a job which is a sewing stuff job.
Mix all this stuff & You'll find that:
I'm becoming a weirdo.
(not that I wasn't weird to begin with)--now, now I should stop complimenting myself c:

GOODNIGHT!

vv is like ^^

Today I bought a Mighty Bright booklight for my kindle.
yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
---> Joy & happiness.
I can really read my kindle anywhere&anytime now. :)
My mom told me a guy on the bus remarked to his wife: "Wah, got lamp all" (in malay)

I also bought a box-ish clutch/bag thing,
It is so pretty. pretty!

Oh wow, I'm shopping so much my blog can be a list of things I bought. aha.

& I'm so hooked onto Harry Potter that I started reciting Hermoine's lines in the toilet.
As Rachel (chng) would say: "WHAT THE."

I'm also craving turkey every other hour. $$$ And I eat Steak and Ice cream with little qualms about putting on weight. Until this afternoon, when I really went, "Woah, are you sure you want ice cream?" (btw, I alread finished the steak at that point in time) & forced myself to picture the soon-to-be reality of me & an actual tummy that bulges out. sigh. Everyone says it won't happen, but I think its happening. o:

With 4% of battery life left, I think I better go.

'til tmr, goodbye! :)

Harry Potter

A lvls are O-v-e-r,
I'm now reading Harry Potter.
To be exact, I'm on the third book.

Ytd Char& I sent Gerri off at the airport
We all had breakfast tgthr ( + her mom )
We watched a film called "The white ribbon"
It's a German film, done in b/w & a picturehouse movie.
& that's how we ended up being the only two in the theatre on a Friday morning.

At one point, we started taking photos.
Figured the silhouette of our feet would be lovely against the screen.
& Also agreed that the pastor in the movie resembled Char's Dad. largely. c:
& didn't heed Gerri's advice on running around the cinema during the movie. ^^

Today, we had a mega-feast at Jem's.
(ok it wasn't mega, only EXTREMELY yummy)
we had turkey, salad, spaghetti, etc.
basically, 'scrumptious'--to sum it up.
& a round of Cranium . . .

I know why

I want to be an Artist

Because so often am I misunderstood,
That I want to be heard without a contest.
Yet, I have to be silent-
This is what I struggle with, being true.

So much unlike you.

It's okay that we're different.
But not when the rest of the world
think otherwise, you lie

To everybody.
And even as you read this.

it's ending soon!

I've been extremely bothered by the lack of distinction between right and wrong. Selflessness /selfishness.

So tired of making choices.

It's tough to tell what's right sometimes

Hi Julien, if you're reading this.
I didn't reply your email for about a month.
I haven't disappeared though,
& We have something in store for you c:


Uh Basically my current life=essays
So. There. Final blog post until after everything's over!

Hi, almost a month since Ive blogged
Been v busy with art&stuff.
Hopefully it turns out well.
I'm trping in short sentences
Studying's killing my mood.
I want everything to end,
It's going to, soon
Makes me happy$

We have not eaten the Giant Cracker Nicholas has.

it's vacuum packed$

Gr8 night.

Imperial Treasure with Olivia
Then a rlly long walk$
Then everything ended/

A real quicky cause i have about 7% of battery life left & I'm super lazy to get the charger...
It's 3m away, I think I'm lousy.

Okay I'm thinking what I should type here & now it's down to 5%

4%

okay. I think this is the pathetic post you're getting today.

Goodnightttt~~!

Hoping is enough$ (+Effort)

Today ____ came into the Art Room to give us a talk
(Cause _____ is a complain-king)
((I purposefully chose "Complain-king" because it's a Singaporean thing and he's foreign,
&I just decided that I wanted to emphasize the dichotomy$$$))
He doesn't absorb what we say sometimes.
(But then he isn't a sponge) (: (: (:
((even sponges can't absorb words))
I think he gave ____ the impression that the other two teachers left because we were being difficult... This isn't cool at all.
They absolutely didn't leave because of us.
If anything, they liked us all$$$
(And we liked them too)
But if I were to be understanding, I ttly know where he's coming from.
Nonono, I shall be understanding.& he's probably worried (abit obvious) that we're extremely(understatement) behind.
Because we are worried for ourselves too!
(I used blanks in the beginning because Ms K found Danielle's blog once & there was a post on some school-related thing, I think it's better if I kept their names anonymous.$)

But overall, tdy was a good day.
It was the best day of the week.
& was declared the best day of the week last Sunday.

eyepatch

I don't know whyyy, when I type the letter 'e' in the 'Title' textbox, the word 'eyepatch' comes up$
It's funny,I'm trying to recall what I blogged about.

In the meanwhile...(I'll probably cheat&search my old posts)
I just got invited to Talia's 1st birthday party! c:
I think Gene think's I'm crzy over her cause he's sending me pictures of her, it's quite insane/

I just told Wanda:
Vivien says: (AM 12:07:05)
i like big big breaks not small small($)
.
.
.
further down the conversation,
wanda says: (AM 12:08:33)
hahaha i have no idea how to continue this weird cutesy convo

&
wanda says: (AM 12:09:41)
hahah you actually sound caveman ish

I appreciated the comment&thanked her because Cavemen were quite brilliant in the pre-historic era$$

On a side note,
God has been kind.
4 P.E lessons have been canceled!
& he told that he wouldn't be in school on Wednesday (5th p.e lesson)
At this rate NAPFA = chicken.

aww!

okay omg, I realized the jellyfish photo can only make you go WOWZA if its viewed super large. It just looks like a blob of blurry light or something. (at least it wouldnt get stolen, heehee)

I love everything, however it ends up !

So anyway right,
after 2 years the SB district manager is still the same woman
Cause one day I was studying in Starbucks with Gerri & I saw her sitting outside, smoking a cigarette (as cool as she gets)
Random but I just thought that. (I was avoiding eye-contact...She probably wouldn't remember me cause I cut my hair, but I'm sure she would if I hadn't.)




Hello, have a nice day at work! :)
I really don't like the idea of releasing part of my super jellyfish photos (taken with an SLR) on the net...
But I thought if it could make you go WOW then here is just one of the few photos, please enjoy it :)
(This image is super copyrighted okay)

1918 Mood: Optimistic

about everything in this rlly big world c:

2156 mood:deep into the ocean

I have Jesus. And a ♥(heart)too.

1236, mood:Melancholy

I miss you but then I cant remember you
So how?

Last paper tomorrow, (or later)

1257:Mood: Hungry

(I WANT TO EAT NOWWW)
Okay,
today I spent 1hr in Gramophone choosing from boxes and boxes of CDs.
Outcome:
1. Idlewild;Warnings/promises (4.95)
2. The Magic Numbers;The Magic Numbers (2.95)
3. The Magic Numbers; Those the brokes (3.95)
4. The Stands; horsefabulous(4.95)
They aren't awesome-incredible (yet?) but yes. They're not like ZERO material.
Im quite happy with the prices and my added Obscure CD collection c:

Ohman,
I can't believe I'm saying this,
but I'm too hungry to blog...

&The sun may never shine.

Following my superb header photo of when I had rlly precious hair,
I've posted a photo of me in my current.
(super candid...)
The Tennis Team had a farewell steamboat dinner for Susanne&Wei Yan...Auf Wiedersehen! (Goodbye in German)
& No, that's ttly not said because Germany won Argentina tnight.
(And it's my first&last time watching the world cup, I think)

I sill dont get how its fun besides the exciting slow-mo. bits c:

I bought a Bon Iver CD tday...

I woke up at 2pm.
I had a dream last night.
It was stupid, is stupid.
Apparently dreams have quite an impact on me.
So what I thought I left behind, I'm being confronted with, once again.

I intend to get Tim Walker's book this Sunday,
It's been months since I've wanted it,
Too long a decision...
And they don't even let you browse it. Rlly xcited

Now I'm just doing math. I hope I can do rlly well& solve all the qns.

K so sleepy. Can't wait for As to be done!

I flicked my head too hard or something during the paper :(
Means that...
I have an aching neck now.
It's too uncommon for it to be happening to me.

I love MUJI products. $

i feel like i'm waiting for something to pass/happen

That day when oli&kayla asked about people&breaktime(s)
I really couldn't tell them anything about my breaks.
What do I do during breaks anyway?


I'm feeling more&more distant & I'm like ok with it? Its too strange. I suddenly became apathetic. How come!


I'm going to make a long list of things (Nat's suggestion)

I will work hard& not be afraid of still doing badly cause at most I'll just cry my eyes out$

i can't decide if i like solitude or not...

Rlly good day.

Ohno, I'm really sad tonight's over.

It's like I rediscovered companionship.

I'm so happy with tonight.

I miss Olivia&Kayla(&Elaine) so so much.

&Everything that we used to do together.

(especially trying to step on&kill each other's shadows)

Can't wait for when we bake @ Kayla's house. c:

I'm glad Kayla's here until Aug. America is so far away...

Then I am really looking fwd to Julien's return!

FringeII now, then we're watching Inglorious Basterds(blueray) on the 40inch.

Sat,June 19th.

Sunday, March 30, 2008
It's working,
My first CD WALKMAN is working.
believe it or not!
it's been 7 years.
and the sound quality is still good.(:
I am using it because my ipod is updating!
Now i realise how i miss this thing!
-------

I know how I like to quote stuff from my previous posts and all.
But this is such a valuable post because...
Because my precious relic has kapooted on me.
I'm really devastated (although I may sound like I'm being dramatic)

My mom offered to buy a new portable cd player for me.
And of course I said no. It's not the same.
Its not the same like how it's not the same if I replace my Meg&Dia CD cover with a new one just cause somebody cracked it.
oops.
Now I sound whiny&petty. heehee

Wait there was something more important I had to say before alllllll these.
.
.
.
Oh yeah.
I think JC has made me a pessimist.
I don't believe in my capabilities as much as I used to in Secondary school.
This is obviously a bad thing, and I feel like quitting.
(but then I think about the Episode--i think in season4, where Meredith Grey went to a psychiatrist and the lady was so forceful and told her in her face that she was a quitter. and Meredith was all: I'm not a quitter. & Because Meredith didn't like the idea of being a quitter. I Shall not like the idea of being a quitter as well.)

I sound like one of the kids in Bigbangtheory where they draw references to startrek&stuff.
Only theirs is more accurate.
I should work towards more specific references to grey's.
Goodnight I'm going to sleep now.

HappybirthdayMAMA.

Geraldine's admitting now (finally) that she may cry (regarding George's Death) and that she doesnt want to watch it with me anymore (Cause she won't laugh at me cause i wont be the only one crying like mad.)

It is so super officiallllll. Gerri's my Grey's Kaki
As I'm blogging she says "I give up I'm watching again. I'm too emotionally drained to integrate stuff"

$$$$
Anw, I realized I have a couple of shots from the rolls I used in Japan that I find are super wowowowoow shots. They're of jellyfishes, but I think they're so incredible that I am scared to show it to anyone. :>

Am I sel(jelly)fish or what!
(I'm talking about this because I am missing photography ttm)


Sidenote:
The final line has been drawn. and it is so final that the reason that the line has been drawn doesnt even exist anymore. I'm so freakin' serious.

eyepatch

I don't want my deadblog, I want my aliveblog.
So I'm blogging now.

I really want a bicycle.
Found one that I liked v much tdy.
It costs S$2,000
Immediately striked it off my wishlist...

Tdy I stumbled upon joy.
It's so inspiring&pressurizing at the same time.

Tdy is one of those days I feel like crawling under the covers and hiding there until whenever I feel like coming out.
It's also one of those days I feel like running bare-footed on a massive grass patch(so massive you wouldn't even call it a patch) and lying down somewhere in the middle of it.
When it rains I can step on muddy ground because I feel that it's somehow clean. The feeling is organic&refreshing. I discovered this feeling sometime earlier this year.$$$

The rain was so heavy ... apparently Orchard Road was flooded.
I was sleeping.
I woke up. and then I thought of the things I felt like doing.
Then there were the things I had to do.
so I slept some more.

Just when I thought my bodyclock had bigbig issues,
it's only 3am and I'm so tired already.
We're catching breakfast later at 8am.
So I guess I should sleep now.

:'(

I sound like one of those heart-struck teens when they watch twilight,
but this is different.
[spoiler alert, don't read beyond this line if you don't like spoilers]
We're talking George 'O malley here.

Dec 6 2008:
We're coming to the end of Grey's Anatomy season 2!
There is this annoying woman who is in love with George. I can't stand her, she's just not compatible with him. They should have chosen some other woman.
And Meredith is so mean to George unintentionally, I don't really like her.
And George is also being so annoying, just try to forgive Meredith already!
And Derek is being unreasonable.
--------
I'm broken. I am so superbly broken on the inside.
My heart hurts so bad I think this isn't normal.

I ended at season 5,
couldn't just wait for the season 6 dvd, so... I sneaked a peak at a video on youtube. Seriously, I felt like it ripped my heart into a million pieces.

Sigh, sigh, sigh.
Grey's Anatomy is just so dear to me.

$$$

Wowowowow, it's been ages.
I was quite busy with season&all (we won 3rd, heehee)

I'm in the middle of Grey's anatomy season4/5. (yes I'm watching them at the same time)
Only Channel 5 ttly changed the airing time to some other, & I don't know when. I'm at the part where Derek just made out with his nurse (Whats her name again?) I don't like her. I don't like the look of her. And I know in season 5 she slashed his hand on purpose. She should go to jail.

Studied at Suntec today.
Picked out new spectacles since I broke my old one. The ugly white one.$

I'm in love with Lisa Hannigan's/lisa Mitchell's voice, so prettty.
Anw, It is just a coincidence that they have the same first names.



ok. Goodnight.

Lalalalala.

ok. FB(lessthansign)twitter.

I'm becoming more geeky i think.

Not in a I want to study way, but in a I wna watch documentaries and read up on random stuff kind of way.

Another thing that bothers me is that

I keep thinking Im over it when I'm clearly not...

No lah, I am truly happy.

I know so.

I am happy$

I am happy. or at least I think I am.

I can't distinguish falsely claiming to be happy & really being happy.

It sounds pathetic, but I think it doesn't really matter. $

(I wrote this on the 14th but didn't post it)

I didn't attend school ytd and tday.
I was having some kind of weird thing. Its not exactly flu, but I just classified it as flu to make things less complicated.

I slept a lot...
I didn't do very well for bts. But I'm ok with it.
I understand why I didn't do very well.

I should have considered you.
Omg. This week up to today is too horrible.
Everything from now on will be better!

I cannot any furtherrr.

I miss you so, so much.
& keep thinking when was the last time I saw you...

But I can't remember.(keep thinking how she's like,

maybe compare myself a little bit...
see how we're different.
&Hope she's so much more than I am.)

SOMETIMES I SHOULD CONTROL MYSELF.

Ohman, school was nutz today.

I think its because I fell asleep at 12 last night, then I woke up at 4:30, realized that I slept with my contacts (Still wearing them) and I didn't brush my teeth (ew, yucks.) & also that I;ve not done much of my art. So I never went back to sleep.

I'm turning in early today.

Watched the soccer match with Moses. (HAHA.) we both wanted to go for the Lit mastery(remedial) but our names were not in the list. So anw. I was quite excited cause I've never watched any soccer matches (apart from one girls soccer match) before. So. That was like. A first time thing. And I can't get over the bottle thing. and the lane thing.

ohhhh! &&& I know moses won't read my blog, but he's blackmailing/"egging-on" is just funny.

Earlier on in school i did some retarded thing. Ohmama. It's just so silly. I don't know how I'm going t forgive myself. hahahahahaha. HAHAHA. ok.

I'm going to watch the hockey match on friday.

I've never watched a single hockey match in MY LIFE. so that's another first.

Eh how come I never talk about studying anymore?

I shall study. When I get home tmr.

which is probably late.

Cause I'm gna watch whip it w Vincent/Rachel/i-dont-know-who-else-is-going.

Wow my eyes are really tired. I'm feeling scared of taking my contacts out. ):

K, I shall take a shower.

Greatnight t you all.

Ps: I paid attention in Econs lecture. :) (happykidface)

OH, hi again.

I was just thinking how sad it is that we are all part of being forgotten.
Like maybe you remember something with someone in it,
yet it can be so unimportant and trivial to that someone?


zzzzz. This wedding is making me bored
& I'm beginning to think too much.
Darn.

Lalala.

"You are my sweetest downfall,
I loved you first,
I loved you first."
(Samson-regina spektor)

I'm serious about leaving EVERYTHING behind.

I'm just too lazy to talk about whatever that happened,
And. I don't want anyone to judge me.
I know I'll have to say it out one day.
(Since I've alr promised someone-
if you're reading this you'll know its you.)

Sometimes I feel tired but I seem too happy to care.
Even I, think I'm strange.

FRANZ FERDINANNDDD.

nah, phoenix is still the best. They MUST come soon. to Sg. I don't care if there's Alvls the next day, I'll go. REALLY. (But it'd be good if they came like... before of after As. Thank you v much!)

ok, I didn't do the case study I was talking about.

I'm really thankful for the past 40days & how much I've grown spiritually is just amazing.

I think I've managed to set my priorities in life.

And I've also met like so many wonderful people, ahh.

I really feel happy.

I feel that what I've learnt most is to let go.

Today was so. wearisome.

But I'm feeling happy & excited for life concert.

Three days till my facebook fast is officially o-v-e-r. :)

I WILL PRESS ON AND DO ONE ECONS CASE STUDY WITH JESUS' HELP!

Oh, Enlightened!

I was looking at my posts.

And I figured that I need to blog properly.

Wanda, Edna, Isabella & I went for both Au Revoir Simone & St.Vincent on Sunday/Monday respectively.

They were all incredible. Only St.Vincent's performance totally impressed me to the largest extent any concert has ever done before. (Just that I've only been to three concerts including theirs) How Annie Clark set a new standard, because her music was not stripped down to an acoustic set, but instead MUCH more satisfying than her album. The best part is that I've never even listened to her before the session. (So now, I keep comparing her album to her performance, and how her tracks totally doesn't reflect her vocal quality.) I really like that such artistes put in the effort to give a good show.

Apart from that, we met her the day before at Au Revoir Simone's concert.

Ahh.

Today we had service learning.

We went to a child care place. It was the most enjoyable service learning in all CIP history.

(Ok. Is it me or am I an extremist today!)

After that, everyone was just tired.

"God is love"-1 John 4:8

"Love is patient & kind, love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." 1 corinthians 13:4.

Yesterday Andrea pointed out these verses to me & told me if "God is love," we can substitute "Love" as "God" in the second verse. (Wowwzaaaa)

(Before that, we had really good pizza lunch at greenwood & everyone treated me cause they were all older&working. Ohmama.)

Okay. Another post, another time!

I've almost forgotten about it.

Art is. frustrating.
I like it, but it just is.

Last night, my mother told me that she knew what kind of person I am very well and that I have my own way of thinking. "You'll never follow anyone, you do what you want & not for anyone"
I thought: wow.


Happy birthday koji! Loveeeee you :)
Olivia, I'm really grateful that somehow we ended up sitting next to each other in chinese class... Art class... :)

The past week has been surreal.

I feel like I'm drifting.

I feel like I keep spacing out.

I feel dead.

Then the other part of me is alive.

I feel like I have a reason to live,

And that I have something I feel attached to.

Which makes everything else seem so... unimportant.

I need to, have to study!

Starting tonight.

I promise! (Cause everything is starting to pile up ): )

OH FREAK. I LOVE TIM WALKER.

My Art Teacher accepted my idea.

Oh, Yey!

Escape&Entrapment

It reminds me that two things cannot be in one place.

If I choose Him, then nothing can overcome what He has set out for me in this life.

I choose to love Him, & I don't ever want to be apart again.

Ahhh, I should study some...

Does it matter?

I watched a documentary on a shipwreck today.

I think it's great how someone hasn't forgotten the value of something so lost in the past.

Actually researched on it for 40 years.

I'm awed.

Today Firqin&I went to watch Percy Jackson & the lightning thief--A last min decision.

I like it cause:

a. The guy looks good

b. It's like modern Greek mythology or sth. & I like Greek Mythology. (although i only know so much about it, cause the school library decides not to have anything on greek Mythology, specifically)

Anw, the Tarzan-gorilla looking guy, (who i find CUTE) didn't get into the top 24. I'm so sad. Cause i find he did better than the other 16 year old who got in, even though he forgot the whole chunk of lyrics ):

Then & Again,

I'm going to root for Casey James. Solely based on his singing/(super)guitar abilities.

& for the girls side, I really want Didi to win.

Today is so... special.

I was in the car in the morning,

and I wanted to hear a song (can't rmb the title)

so, anw, I suddenly thought: If the devil is real, he'll totally make that song play next.

OMG. I freaked out the next second (in my mind) like I was like crapcrapcrap. Why did I think that. Nononononnonoonoo, the next song will NOT be the song that I wanted to hear.

I forgot about it within the next 30 seconds. (I DONT KNOW HOW)

It was halfway into the next song that I realized they were playing footprints in the sand.

Isn't that just so special?

&I went to school & they announced that there were auditions for Life concert.

& I've decided to go, cause of what happened in the morning, and I don't care if its called coincidence, I want to acknowledge it.

I find it amazing how when I care/think about how my relationship with Jesus is crappy, everything always comes together. I don't know how to explain it.

It always happens, somehow.

okay, GOODNIGHT.

You will die you will die you will die (haha, kidding)

Art is such a dread lately, when I think of the lessons itself.

The teacher is strict.

It's demanding, since the previous teacher had an opposite approach.

& I find that he's unclear about "the task" sometimes.

But ohwell.

We'll get used to it.

Edna, wanda & I went to (kiwi) Jam today.

This was our best take on DC4C's I will follow you into the dark.

(It's still quite bad..)

cause I didn't know how to sing the second part. HAHA.

If you're nice, you'll stop the song like halfway to save us our face. yey!

We tried harmonies later,

but ehhh....

I'll post another video soon on us doing harmonies! :)

Anw, we were being so super annoying.

I think the guy outside was like really pissed off at us laughing like mad.

Angry guy: What's that? (points to Edna's ukulele)

Wanda: A Ukulele?

Angry guy: ........So you guys were doing a Death Cab cover using a Ukulele? (rhetorical question)

Vivien: uhhh, yah....

That aside, I feel sleepy, & I shall consider sleeping at 11pm. or 10:30pm or 10pm. Depends.

I LIKE THIS WEEK & EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN THIS WEEK.

A step closer, a step further.

Just cause it didn't turn out the way they wanted it to.

Plain Shallow.

Rome, rome, rome, rome.

I like school on certain days.
Most of the times, days when there's no H1, cause I really don't like H1...
I really need to start studying. A.s.a.p.
Okay, I'm so in the mood, that I'm going to study a little now.
BYE.

My sister & I went to cut some flowers at our garden just now. (HAHA. I live in a Condo, btw.)
I'm making a Flower Crown for tmr.
*I've just made a Flower Crown for tmr.
What is tmr?
I'm trying my first intentional photography thing & Euphoria's gonna be my subject matter. HAHA.
There's also tennis tmr. We're looking at bags after that.
Omg, why does tomorrow sound so fun?

Proud people make me mad, and usually drive me to study.
I studied for O lvls trying to prove that I'm not stupid...

If only you could stop. hanging. on.

i shouldn't have said the last sentence ytd.

CAUSE.

I'm really failing now. Single-digit fail somemore.

Aren't I a cool kid.

The art room is freaking comforty. (Sorry I felt like using the word "Freaking")

sounds vulgar though.

I'm extremely excited.

Think Im gna try & get a photography job.

It's a part time thing.

I'll get to take wedding photos.

*Squeels*

So anyway.

I'm quite hopeful for my art msa (the theory thing) cause Mrs Kee said I did better than previously.

Previously, I got an S & she gave me an E.

so I'm hopeful.

Anyway, I think I deserve a good grade cause I studied it okay...

& for lit & for econs.

not for math.

I don't deserve a grade for math...

Ms K mentioned 1984 several times in class tday.

Makes me feel like reading the book again!

OMG, I BOUGHT NEW CAMERAS BUT THEN I CANT BARE TO PART WITH MY NIKON.

It's such a dear thing to me.

I miss Julien, abit.

I wonder what she's doing in New york now..

School should've started for her already!

Japanese roommate...

Okay, GOODNIGHT.

I might sleep early today.

I AM GNA FAIL MY MATH MSA TMR. ):

I don't want to!

Cause H1 usually pulls my rank points up.

But I ttly don't know a single thing about coefficient/ linear regression / Logarithms.

Tomorrow is a friday, yeah,yeahyeah!

I'm in love with phoenix.

Took me awhile to realize that.

But I listen to them every morning.

The CD Wanda gave me is in my mom's car. >>:)

Hot.

&&& I can't wait.

Oh yeah, there's a new sweedish art teacher.

Today he came as a visitor, & we only got to say hello to him.

But if tomorrow he comes, I promise I'm going to find out the pronunciation of IKEA.

HOHO.

He has cute harry potter glasses... I like. (Not harry potter, but the glasses)

K bye. I took like.. another hour off studying for my math..

omg, fail then fail lah.

Today, I totally contradicted myself in my econs essay... throughout my econs essay. It's quite dumb actually.

And my lit essay made me realize how unfriendly poems are. You think you got them figured out, and they're totally unrelated to what you thought they were. O:

And I'm a crazy camera freak.

I am slowly filling my dry cabinet up with cameras.

omg.

I really want it.

ART MSA TMR.

:O

Two days ago I survived til 4pm without sleeping,

tonight, I'm already sleepy at 1:47am.

Days are passing by and I feel more and more like just taking a break.

I have a place I go to, you know?

But I don't say out where it is,

I'm afraid it'll be discovered & start to get all crowded.

Don't even talk to me about it.

I was behind the esplanade the other day, I like the view there, very much.

But there were just so many random people.

It's no longer nice when there are people there watching you & wondering what you're doing there, eating cotton candy, looking at the Merlion.

So of course I move off.

I'd rather be at Subway, eating a sandwich than catching whiffs of smoke by the riverside. -_-

Cigarettes and land/cityscapes just kind of clash, to me.

One week ago, we were going to leave Japan.

As expected, I want to go back to where it was cold and comfy.

I always liked the scarf around my neck.

With the exception of one (or two) friends, I've completely given up on.

Maybe I've already done so, a while ago.

There were times I wondered how she went to places alone, did whatever she liked.

Marilynne Robinson wrote in her book, Housekeeping, that "Loneliness is an absolute discovery." (As mentioned before)

It really is.

Last time I checked, we are both now, in completely switched situations.

She discovered it first, & I might get to where she is now, one day.

You were supposed to be a friend.

Nothing more than a friend.

Every one of you.

Maybe, once, so close.

Now lost.

I hope I can make it for a certain concert that only allow above 18-s.

i'm 18 this year, its unfair if i cant go.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I had a really long blog post about my new year,

But I decided not to post it.

In essence,

I had dinner with my family&Parent's friends,

Went to meet Geraldine, Jerome, Chris,Weisong, Dionne, Ben, Jeanette & Melissa

Caught a movie.

Went to Chris' house

Went to Kranji

Went to My aunt's house

Slept at 4pm.

(And I survived w/o coffee o: )

Now moving on to the Cameras I'm buying.

1. The Canon AE-1 (Black) + 50mm f1.8

2. Olympus OM2n+ 50mm f1.4

(pictures taken from google images.)

I'm excited & Happy & broke all at the same time, WOW!

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