braces

Oh my gosh, my braces is off in two days. TWO DAYS!
(I hope i look good, or i'm gonna wear retainers all the time- although i'm supposed to.)

I am crazy over LIBERA. oh, they are so good!

I should sleep, yes i should. (i'm hungry, and that's a sign.)

Happy childrens day (ten mins early) to all the HAPPY children in the world. Enjoy it while you still can, cause when you turn 16, you are gonna be miserable and stressed up.

OK. bye.(oh yeah, MISS HOE GAVE US A PENCIL EACH.)

I can do it!

I'm studying a lot, here and now.
I don't like studying at home, cause it is so distracting.
Whatever. I don't have much to blog about anyway.
I just basically studied the day away.
I don't want to talk about my depressing results. (hyperbole, please don't think i did THAT bad.)



I miss Olivia,
but I'm not talking to her, she's just there, but Somehow, i choose not to do it.

Mad. (as in angry, mad)

Ok, Actually, i'm not angry. I just feel like saying i'm angry.
But I'm not.

Went out with Olivia and Elaine for lunch today, then we went to daiso (and i spent money on baking stuff) my knee killed me today. (this is a hyperbole. means, i didn't actually die, but my knee, it hurt like hell -another hyperbole. Ok, i'm being irritating. my knee was very[?] painful.)
So, anyway, out of 10, i give myself 1. And the "1" mark itself is a pity mark. This is regarding my studying, i think i cannot study here. so i am gonna attempt to ask if i can study tmr. (outsidE)

bye. (I DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE.)

( }: moustache smiley. (copyrighted, cause I CREATED IT.)

Tired, exausted, and in pain.

Once again, dinner conversation was funny.

Nicholas: Oh! mummy, can ask kaka to fry cod fish?
Mummy: (Reading book)
-pause-
Mummy: Huh?
Nicholas: You know, like the spaghetti place? they fry the cod fish with salt and black pepper?
Mummy: ok.
Nicholas:ok, thanks.
-silence-
Mummy: Ok, ok, i buy cod fish lah!
(everyone laugh, cause she suddenly answer the question that was already answered)
Nicholas: Mummy, you're very funny!
Mummy: correct what! you want to eat cod fish right?
Papa: you know, mummy is the only woman i know, that when she walks on the street, people will stop her and tell her she's beautiful.
Mummy: Dont have laa..
Papa: yeah! yeah, its true! Like Aunty Jade's(neighbour) son told her that, "aunty, you're very pretty."
Mummy: Don't have laa..
nicholas, rachel and I:(pause)
Nicholas, rachel, vivien: HUH? but Aunty Jade doesn't have a son!
Papa: Oh, is it? OHOH, Aunty Sapphire(also referring to neighbour)! nono, Aunty diamond lah, aunty diamond. (non-existent neighbour)
everyone: HAHAHAH.
Papa: Even the american guy (referring to some business man)told me, "hey, you married a SUPERMODEL."
Mummy: don't have lah, that guy just tell you that cause to him, you're the Goddess of Money.
-everyone stops-
everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
mummy: God, God. I mean God.
Papa: (start to act gay, HAHA. but i forgot what he said)

Ok, maybe it is not that funny if you read it here.
I'm waiting for monday.
We're gonna submit our art olvl coursework, then we're gonna have ICE CREAMMM.
I missed training today, cause of my leg.
It's extremely painful today. After i washed it with antiseptic water, and applied a (somewhat) thick layer of dettol cream in school. But whatever, I feel more consoled that its healing.

I'm taking off my braces next thursdayyyy! (:
Time passes so fast.

push ugly thoughts to the back of your mind

Today is a depressing day.
Especially when it got to the end of the day. Cause so many bad things happened.
During mother tongue lesson, i made olivia REALLY mad. Cause i broke her drawing crayon pencil thing. Then i tried to make it better by cracking lame jokes about breaking it. Apparently it made it worse. (i'm bad at this) (oh yeah,later on, adina was like: you look flustered. olivia ignores her. adina: I SAID, you look flustered! olivia ignores her again. I think to myself, you;re being stupid to say that kind of things. then suddenly, SHE FANS olivia with her paper. haha, and i start laughing, uncontrollably. but i think to myself: I'm an actress, I'm an actress, and I regain composure.)
After that, i didnt feel like studying at the learning lab anymore, so i wanted to go home, and i called my mummy. And, she asked me to call my sister (Cause my sister was at the bus stop already) so i did that, but my sister did not want to be fetched cause she felt bad. Then I said ok and hung up, but inside, i was really irritated, cause by the time i reached the bus stop, I would have missed MY bus. So annoyed, i walked past the stairs leading to the back of the hall. Then, i was talking to Jesus (that's what I do) and the conversation went like this:
"Why don't you just punish me for breaking Olivia's pencil, and make me miss my bus. Then I can make my sister feel bad about it, and olivia will forgive me." (so angry.)
And just as i said this. i fell.
I usually dont fall. But i fell.
And it wasn't a graze, it was like, WOAH.
I quickly get up, and i look at my wound, and, there is this big oval of white.
I felt disgusted and upset, cause my leg will have a big scar.
I walked back to the toilet, and Natalie accompanied me, only thing is that i was so irritated, i walked faster than her.
Then by the time i got to the bus stop, i was feeling sad and angry. Cause I don't want my leg to be scarred, and i felt irritated that i said such a lousy prayer. so i sniffed. (you can't consider this as crying.) But anyway, this primary school girl i think? she saw me, and she thought i was crying over the wound. and she was looking at me like i can't tolerate pain. well just so you know, i can. I CAN. Then i went up the bus, and everyone was looking at me, and i dont know what they were thinking. but i walked very clumsily, cause i didnt want to touch the handles (dirty) but i had a bad leg. so i couldnt walk properly.
Listened to Vienna boys.
Then I called my sister to apologize for hanging up. (i messaged but she didnt reply)
BAD DAY.
oh well, in the end, olivia forgave me(yey), and my sister and mummy ended up feeling really bad because they think they're to blame for my ugly wound. and I ended up feeling bad that they felt bad, cause it wasnt their fault.
ironies of LIFE.

IN SPITE, ><

Iam totally impressed with my baking skills.
I'm so self-obsessed, but who cares!
So, i baked chocolate chip cookies yesterday. I made two pacts with Olivia, one is that i will bake cookies if we go study today (so that we can eat while we're at it), the other is that i will make her NOT eat at the cafe in the library (cause oh my gosh, the food is so good)
Then I told elaine to come too. (and kayla, but as usual she is BUSY. busybody. haha, good joke)
So i baked yesterday. But the cookies were only revealed to Elaine, Olivia, and Kayla (and me), after school. This is selfish, but we need to protect our cookies until study time. HAHA. If you're sad, indulge in the picture!
Unglam shot of Olivia. (she looks like old woman; liang po po)

Elaine is sad ):Then the cookies are FINISHED. We studied a short while more, then olivia had to go for tuition, so we left, and i'm here now, blogging. (after guitar lesson-i was falling asleep, cause my teacher showed me how to play some songs, and i was tired.)
TEE-SHIRT, TEE-SHIRT. yey. yey. yey.

it somehow annoys us, and yes. it does.

Art was fun.

Today, I stayed back for art.
I still somewhat sort-of refuse to do my colour scheme.
I did it before, but its like here and there, i want to do another one, but i refuse to do it?
So, anyway,
I told camilla that she must finish her canvas painting by tomorrow, or she'll owe me
1x MCSUNDAE
1x Honey milk tea with pearls.
actually, it was one more tea, but we went to island creamery after art, and she paid me one fifty (this one is not because of punishment, its cause i bought her bubble tea that time)
Camilla is very funny,
and she laughs at what i say. (when people say its lame)
So i like her.
For example
-on the topic of mr. Anthony and his lollipop/ why alot of people had lollipops-
Camilla: (asks the lollipop question)
Me: cause Mika gave it to them.
-everyone pauses to think-
Me: You know? (sings)"Sucking too hard on your lollipop, oh, love's gonna get you down?"
Camilla: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Jane: -.-
Camilla:(looks at Jane) YOU DONT GET IT?

haha.
Ok, I AM GONNA STUDY MATH.
Miss Lim is capable of making me nervous. BYE.

Fruits tastes good.

I feel cheated and used.
oh well, life's like that isn't it?

So, today, we got back our POA paper one and our physics component for paper one.
and, i did well. So I'm in a good mood.

What's more, my mummy bought dresses for me, and my sister.
I love my mummy, she knows our tastes. :)
I love my daddy cause he paid like $760 for them, and he was the one who told my mum to buy stuff for us!

So anyway, during art, i completed my artist statement, in one hour. And this took me very long to set my heart to it, but in an hour, I'm done.

I like my parents way of running the family.
We eat dinner together every night, and we have fruits too, after that.

This post is very jumpy and disorientated.
During english, we went to the library. And i got a little annoyed. Cause i just finished my book yesterday. I have another book to read, but i didnt bring it.
So anyway, i re-read digital fortress. I know how i dont re-read books, but this is an exception, because i completely cannot recall what it is about, only that Strathmore turned out to be a bad guy, and susan's name is susan, and that it has an impeccable plot.

OFF TO FRUITS, before they vanish.

One last practical paper.

Draw your curtains and take a peek,
The moon is special tonight.
But incase you are stuck inside, and cannot look at it, this is what it looks like. (now its without the clouds, but I'm too lazy to take a new one.)

Yesterday, We passed our golf handicap test, and we only played three holes out of nine.
Jesus was on my side. Yey to that.
Cause then i somewhat had more time to study for Phychem and prepare for art P2.

Today was finally over, and Olivia, Elaine, Kayla (a huge first time), and I went to coro and then out for macdonalds. On the way to coro, I was practicing Japanese with my ipod. Then at mcdonalds (or is it MAC donalds?) I wanted to have McSundae. Chocolate flavour. You can say its my favourite ice cream. Cheap taste but whatever. But when i finally finished my food, the ice cream was FINISHED. Then I was a little sad, but nevermind.

I have a bad throat today. Its not painful, but i sound horrible. I think its like Ramya's last time sick voice. Its funny, cause we made her say a pick up line cause her voice was so sexy. haha. not that my voice is sexy. Its not, cause Olivia kept asking me to stop talking. But of course I didnt.

WE HAVE ONE LAST PRACTICAL PAPER TO THE END OF PRELIMS.

Titles always give me problems.

i want to change blog, but then i want to win my previous blog that has 167 posts in it. This one has 87. Gosh, how did i do it?

The second half of Prelims is a quindecillion times better than the first half.
1. I studied a lot harder (and fell sick in the process, and i'm still falling- haha. if you get me.)
2. I think i did better than the first half, which means my marks are all pulled up.

(this sounds freaky, since its not the first time saying it, but) I LOVE MY SISTER, alot. being in the same room with her, it makes us get a lot closer. She's fun to be with, and i regret not finding out many years earlier. She has a weird collection of Marie items. or much rather, her-collecting Marie items is weird.
AND SHE THINKS I'M WEIRD- i won't even say why. or else you might think i'm weird.

3. I have confirmed the BEST WAY to memorize my work. Like its an absolute thing. It never fails you. But BLAME MY SISTER, she thinks i'm weird cause of my way of memorizing things, so i'm not telling you-or you'll think i'm weird. haaa.[ok, enough of this weird thing]

whatever. here's to updating.
CHEERS.


-edit-
OKAY, TELL ME I LIKE THE SAME KIND OF GUYS.
so, here's the story(papa, please ignore this.)
First, I like Tegoshi Yuya. He is Japanese.
(left)
He can sing well and likes to play soccer.




Then, when a korean crazy person and I clash,
You get me half-liking a korean.
Lee Hongki.
He can sing well, and he likes soccer, also. (not that i like soccer or anything,)
Ah, and knock me, he can cook!
And please don't tell me he's better looking.
Cause my future is already planned out.Excuse me, but what the heck,
I am no longer investing any of my time in these two individuals who don't know me. At all.
(and i, too, don't know them)
but just for the record, i like guys who sing- well.
And i don't like playing soccer, cause i'm scared i'll get kicked or something.
(but i like the idea of soccer.)

On a lighter note

I LOVE MY PAPA.
he is very funny.

on the way to dinner today,

Turning into C.H.I.J.M.E.S
Papa: ...then you see all these tricycle riders, think they own the road!
-silence-
Nicholas: papa, its trishaw, not tricycle

Going into carpark
Papa (winds down window to pay for the parking)
Papa (shouts): EXCUSE ME, YOUR PARKING FEE IS VERY EXPENSIVE.
nicholas: huh! you pressed the button to talk to them? (referring to white button to press for help)
Mummy: no lah! never press.
Papa: heh. heh. heh.

hahahahaha. ok. done. SLEEP. i'll post a picture tomorrow.

It's currently 1:13 am.
I'm tired, I'm irritated, and I wish I could do things I want to.
I realise that when I actually do get to do things I want to do, it almost immediately becomes insignificant in contributing in anyway to my sense of accomplishment.
Then I'll go missing the whole idea of "studying your head off."
But when you're studying now, oh how boring and annoying it can get.
You'd do anything for anything else.
This goes the same for any other thing.
When its this, you want that.
When you get that, you want something different.
Nothing satisfies your wants. Ever.
Are we really so selfish? Yes. and deep down, YES.
We can get everything we wanted yesterday and still be wanting more today.
The truth in it all makes me frustrated.
I can tell myself that it won't happen again, but it will.
I can't accept people for who they are;
I pick on their faults,I don't accept their faults, I can't stand it
At the same time, there are problems with myself too, yet i go on with my life without a single twitch.
So badly i want to stop trying to be perfect,
but sometimes, it takes over my subconscious mind, and i can't stop it.
Somewhere in the commotion, my conscious mind fights back something that doesn't exactly exist, and I become the worst person you've ever met.
So don't talk to me, and don't be my friend
cause i'm not here, and i don't exist. (ok, yes i do. but i'm just pissed off, and i want to type this.)

P.S: i am fed up with you, cause suddenly, you don't seem to be our friend anymore. Yet when you're with us, i don't take effort to talk to you. See, I'm selfish. I TOLD YOU. (end of PS)

PSS: I'm upset, so ignore this snappy post, and move on with your life.(end of PSS)

PSSS: I don't mean to be rude to you. (END OF PSSS)

On the way to get our delicious food who(that) was the hero of our stomach(s)' constant cries right up til 3 in the afternoon, olivia, being too hungry, successfully made a conversation funny.

Olivia (ties her fringe)
Vivien (laughs)
Olivia What, this reminds you of how stupid you look when you tie your fringe up
Vivien No, i can pull it off, so i wont look stupid
Olivia THEN PULL IT OFF LAH.
Vivien Huh?
Olivia/ Vivien (pause for one second)
Olivia/Vivien HAHAHAHAHAHA.

well finally, right now, i hope, i can finish my revision. PLEASE.