I WANT TO STUDY OVERSEAS.

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I'm really happy because

someone added two of my photos as her favourite on flickr.

And I really like the photos she takes.

(omg)

I don't want Ms Chan to go...

I think none of us from Art wants her to go, really.

Byebye.

):

Today,

I went to the starbucks at vivo to study my econs.

I bought my drink, but I realized that i was short of ten cents.

The guy was really nice and he let me pay what I had because he was already flustered he had a void.

The manager was being nice in front of me, and she said, "Void again?? Can you please listen carefully before you key in anythinggg?"

Managers (in general) shouldn't get so uptight, because to begin with, they were the ones who put such pressure on serving the customers quickly. (unless they don't)

(I speak from experience.)

I miss work. I miss noor&farik, filah.

Anyhoo,

I hope to do well for my econs test tomorrow,

but I'm here, in front of the computer...

Kay, bye.

Long gone.

It was a long day today.

I'm trying to study Economics. Its. not. working.

So, I'm going to do some Pw.

This is b.o.r.i.n.g.

I really like my tornado dream.

It makes me feel like there's some hope.

I sometimes wish I'd fall real badly and knock my head hard enough for an amnesia to set in, and then I'd only remember my family.

Wish I could forget you & the fun things we did.

The look on our faces when it got cancelled.

The unfairness of things when they don't work out the way you want them to.

I'd give almost anything to have a last look at that book.

I know I'm blogging so much.

I just wanted to say that

There's something wrong with my left knee.

My knee hurts like...

like the other time my lymph node swelled up.

ok,bye.

The Giant whirl-y Tornado.

I dreamt that there was a tornado.

We were all in the car watching helplessly.

The tornado came really close to us

& we pleaded for it to go away.

It was spinning round and round.

It moved slightly away from the car, towards the right.

But it came back.

Soon, we were moving up, up, up.

I asked my dad how this would end.

he said we'd all die.

I shut my eyes & covered my ears,

I could feel the air pressure in my ears.

They felt like they were going to burst.

somehow, I felt that we were all flying up towards the sun.

It was because there was this great bright light when I thought that I had exploded into bits.

there was no pain.

But I appeared somewhere else.

I cannot remember where I appeared to.

But I know I was with someone who could give me answers.

I asked, asked and asked.

But I didn't listen,

And now, I have no idea what the answers were.

Just three seconds.

I'm harping on a thought,

& I just want to lay collapsed,

on a bed of cushions.

I close my eyes & a

lovely picture is painted.

I want to be in an open field,

despite the Sappiness.

I'm embedded in a mass of

Green grass & Lion's tooth,

& the fact that I'm finally alone,

with, perhaps, an eye,

elevated on a tripod stand.

awwh.

I'm officially addicted to flickr-ing.

I slept for one hour in the library.

Yey,

I got a twenty-five dollar kino voucher!

wonder what I'll buy.

Ps: I reached home at 9:47 today!

I had dinner at coffee club with Wanda & Isabella after speech day.

Too lazy to blog details.

I nearly fell asleep during speech day, but I was seated beside the aisle where Mr Anthony could see me.

I saw Mrs Pillai too, I miss Mrs Pillai & Chem & atoms & stuff like that. With the exception of practical(s) cause my hands feel really dirty after practical(s). But I think practical(s) made me a good baker. I read& follow instructions well. (I think!)

I also miss Miss hoe & the smell of the wax in the art room. ahh. the smell is so nice. ):<

And.

The school hall has this aura(?!@!) of holiness. (I know, I sound crazy) But its really, calm and holy. what's another word for holy? pure, spiritual, uh. godly? Whatever, but SA's facility doesn't feel pure or spiritual or godly or holy. It feels. Dark. (Omg, i can't believe I'm saying this)

I think I know who I am, and I think my own personal feelings/thoughts towards a certain subject won't sway, cause the last time it did, I didn't know who I was anymore, I felt like I was someone else. Everytime I think of this, I feel frustrated.

Okay.

"I'm sure you'll do fine, you're such a steady girl"

I miss Mr Anthony.

His praises make me feel important.

Cause he's such an important teacher/person.

I must blog this down so that I can read this over and over again, and never ever forget that feeling of importance.

Ahhhhhhhhh.

Okay, goodnight! (Great night, i'm so lame.)

Lol, Talking about lame,

I found out today that my subject combi is

Lit, Art, Econs, Math.

(LAEM)

doesn't it sound like Lame?

It does right.

12+14 = 26.

today is the 23rd.

Three more days till I can blog in whatever way i want!

I want to sleep.

but there's prisonbreak.

Goodmorning

GP is bad to me.

Night!

Hi. Hello, Hi. Hi.

Imma naughty girl (haha,wanda)

I totally splurged money that is not mine.

I won't say how much.

Or what I bought

Or everyone will think I'm insane.

Today, I went to takashimaya.

And I bought a magnetic strip that was coiled.

It was kinda heavy

and it caused my new bag strap to kinda. snap.

It was embarrassing,

considering the fact that I was at the Kate Spade sale when that happened.

(hehe, it really was kinda embarrassing)

But ohwells.

OH MY GOODNESS

its 11:53pm,

I still haven't read my econs notes.

I'm going to start believing in God & Jesus & Christianity again.

I think it just might make me a happier person.

So, yey to that!

Today, Geraldine & I put coke chewy(s) into wasabi and ate one each. It was genuinely funny.

Wanda rox my sox. (I'm going to regret this like 2 years later when I read this. And I'm going to wonder why I blogged like this. HA-HA) we're gg speech day tgthr :)

PS: I got E for my Art & GP. ):<

I do not have school next tuesday, Ha-ha-ha!

GDNIGHT.

I just read my really old blog.

Im certain that I want to go back to my usual way of blogging.

No more exaggerated happy-sounding things, or whatever, Like the last post.

NO MORE.

Yey.

OH.

And I forgot to mention the mixtape(or, rather, CD)

that Wanda gave me.

PHOENIX!

&&&

Fleet foxes'

White winter hymnal is too catchy. (heehee)

Fleet foxes make me feel calm and christmas-y.

I feel brainwashed when I listen to it :) (in a good way)

Things that made my day today

a. I had only ONE hour of lessons. (10:30-11:30)

b. I found out there's a photo shop near school.

c. There is prison break tonight AND Project runway (Ahhh)

d. I had Anderson yoghurt+Raspberries

e. I had a californian sushi roll.

f. There was no chinese

g. I didn't bring my lit text, and there was no lit.

h. I finally read some 60 pages of my book.

And I won't put down the million other things that didn't make my day.

Because. I said two weeks.

I keep this up, and, uh.

good for me.

Hurrah.(eww)

I got TWO new books today!

I'm excited.

I'm feeling so positive, that I'm going to will myself against blogging with my usual tone, for... TWO weeks!

Yey. I'm hoping I won't fail my Art CT (which is Highly possible, since I've found out that I've failed section A) or I'll have to sound happy about it.

Anw

the two books are....(drumroll)

1.Atonement

2.Forgot the title. (ha-ha)

Another reason why I'm ridiculously happy.

Is because

I managed to get some songs from Gregory and the hawk and Au revoir Simone.

I think they just managed to steal Meg &Dia's top placing in my itunes library (:

(or maybe not)

Okay, BYE.

I'm reading my old diaries.

Omg, Its super funny.

So funny, that I'm gna quote one entry. or not. HAHA

I think I have the same tone as how I'm blogging. Only my english was really bad. The whole thing kind of annoyed me.

Reading it makes me realize how long I've been keeping everything to myself, and controlling it. I think its since. 2006?

I'm stupid.

for everything, I'm really stupid.

Then, I have another diary in pri. school.

Omg, I have stuff about Zhen Min in it! (And she just joined Econs tuition)

And. Euphoria seems to have been like. coming and going in my life.

And, If you read it. You'll find that I was really bitchy.

For example:

11.07.04

"Dear diary,

since you are new, I want to tell you some things that happened lately. My good friend, ______, had been sort of hypnotized by _____(B)_____. B us a nice girl but I cannot take it when she does this sort of thing..."

And

"I'm never lending her any books anymore. She wants my thoroughbred book--Bridal Dreams, But I purposely pretend that I never bring it... then when I read my thoroughbred 5, 62 finish, I'll bring the bridal dreams to school and read it in front of her. Then when she asks, I say that I'm lending it to some one else. ~~ How evil can I get? ~~Anyway, she stared it!"

Omg, practically the whole book is me, bitching.

Omg, I paid 22.70 for my diary, hello? how did i get so much money, and why did i spend it on a diary?

HAAHAH

13.07.04

"Diary, I have calmed down, they are so sickening. Euphoria help me tell them off.. ha! they should know that I ain't their friends...ha! I said in front of them that I was going recess with Euphoria..."

Omg. thank you euphoria.

OMG. Beatrice was in my life in 04.

OMG. Michael Jackson's Ben was my fav. song in 04

16.02.05

"I dreamt that I got kicked out of tennis cause someone better than everyone came and the lousiest would be kicked out. Although I'm not the lousiest, I got kicked out..."

LOL

Kayla was in my life in 05 too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In 05, I also suspected ______ to like nicky. Apparently its becoming more evident. Esp. this year.

Haha, I wrote a short part about Charlene (tennis) in 05!

OOOO. I had tennis elbow in 05-06.

This is getting tiring.

Its a really long post on my diary entries.

13.09.06.

I got a gossip about Jared/Khee ern. (I totally forgot about until now)

Not gna put it down here. LOL.

Oh, My.

finally in 07, my english is way better. And my entries are more sensible.

Oh, no wonder, I was visiting orchard library in 07.

This means my current 53-dollar library fine has been around since 2007. what year is it? 2009. Outstanding.

16.02.08,

Someone recognizes for the first time that I smile things away...

The book was really sad!

Lucky for me, I was in the MRT when I was reading it. So I didn't cry. (otherwise people woul'dve seen)

okay, but it wasn't the saddest book ever.

I like sad books.

I wanna try silk screen printing!

okay. I don't have anything to do now.

The book I'm reading now reminded me of someone, but I won't say it, or i'll sound a little weird or freaky.

Gnight,

I'm sleepy. Don't feel like blogging, bye.

My conscience is my strongest weakness.

Omg.

Do I:

a. Do my chinese work, so that I can read during CL period tmr?

b. Sleep

c. Make my tea for tmr?

d. Do both a & c.

e. Read my new book (A Thousand Splendid Suns)

I'm in a state of. dilemma.

For some awful reason, there is a blue-black the side of my knee. ):

Read it read it!

"I bet you liked the word splendid on the cover that's why you bought it."

--Wanda @ 8:12pm.

She's mad. The only time I decide not to buy a book by choosing its cover first (because i had been choosing for one hour and fourty-five mins, and I couldn't find any seemingly nice books that would have been able to be compared to The Bell Jar), she tells me to "pick the best" cover.

Nuts, cause I had been choosing for almost two hours. Waste time.

My day was both dragged down and made happy because of the The Bell Jar book.

It kinda makes me feel depressed and afraid that I might go crazy in the future and be put in a mental hospital, I don't want to be mental. I'm not just saying this. But I actually think so.

I think I stand a really high chance of going insane like the character(or the author,herself). So I'd better be careful about such things in the future. I shouldn't expose myself if I really do go insane.

On a lighter note, the book was a good read. It made me feel like reading more stuff.

which is why I went to pageone, and spent a really long time there.

I feel so wordy today.

Chinese orals was okay, but I don't think(never did) I'll get distinction again. (I have no idea how I got distinction for Os.)

I finally shaved my legs.

I feel like saying this. so I'll say it, even though its a little crude.

Untitled

I read up on Sylvia Plath on wiki after Julien & Firqin told Wanda who told me, that She gas-ed herself to death.

She never intended to actually die.

If that ever happened to me, cause I was suicidal or wanted to try crossing to the other world for one second, so that I'd know what its like, but end up dying instead, I won't be very happy. I'll be the saddest thing alive. or dead. I'd probably wish I didn't do it. Regret it for eternity.

I went out with Wanda/Evangeline tday!

We watched a movie called. I love you, man.

it was quite funny. I laughed until I teared. but I can't rmb which part that was.

I'm sleepyyyy.

okay, I'll probably like. sleep right after prison break today.

(This could be a lie)

A.b.c.d.e.f.g.h.i don't want school.

I don't want to go back to school.

Andy Roddick lost to Somebody. (I refuse to write his name.)

I didn't really get to watch, cause the TV in my friend's house was like beside where her sister was studying. Man.

But Ws was msging me the score.

Still haven't developed my film.

I really wanna do it soon, but I'll try to finish up my other one, so I won't have to make doubled trips.

SIGH.

reading The bell jar by Sylvia Path now.

I really want to read Jane Eyre, but I dare not, in case I don't read it finish, I'll ruin the book.

Oh, What's the fuss!

Exams are over, yeh, yeh, yeh.

I'm gg to read a book, before anything piles up (:

I'm gg to take lots of pictures too.

I feel really excited suddenly.

Yey.

I thought exams are over, and I'll sleep.

But I'm still awake!

omg, I forgot all the things i was gna do!

I don't think its blogging.

BYEBYE.

I said that I'd feel sad, you said that you'd accept it.

Sometimes, almost, all the time, I wonder when I'll ever be "old enough."

Even when there are no guys.

Even when JC was supposed to be the age we agreed I could get a boyfriend(not that I even want one, I'm just saying it was the age that I could do what I wanted.)

It still feels the same.

I don't feel like trying anymore, or maybe, I won't.

There is no prison break today, because of Michael Jackson.

Ohwell, all the better, I can focus on the last two papers. I hope I can finish..

This blog is heavy most of the time. Eewww!

Now everyone knows how bottled up I am.

I get so sick of it, but I can't do anything about it.

So, to make things happier! ,

I studied with Wanda and Evangeline tday.

It was quite fulfilling to an extent.

See, I feel so much better already, I know how to make myself (:

Hi.Bye.

T-bag wanted to be GOOD.

I realize he always wants to change, but he's always not given the chance.

Seriously.

He shouldn't have started being bad in the first place anyway.

And I can't stand that Mahone got betrayed.

He's my Favourite character in prisonbreak ): I like him better than Michael.

That aside,

MY DAY WAS CRAP.

It all began when. I overslept, by a lot. And missed consultation.

Then, I found that I didn't change the ISO knob when I switched my roll of film. (which made me sad, if you understand what I'm saying, because. I was already into the 9th shot.)

And I had no mood to study my art.

Which means, I might do badly.

Unless I can salvage it now.

So, I'm gonna go now, try to salvage whats left of my art theory.