Vivien says: lets have pudding(:

i, like any other normal japanese drama watcher is waitingv very impatiently for the PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN SPECIAL EPISODE subtitles.
anyway,
school today was okay i guess.
Euphoria had this video of hazi and i dancing during the study skills camp, it is funny.
Oh, just remembered that there is the 2.4 run! ): i feel tired just thinking about it! I hope i'm not so slow, i've not run(or ran?) in a while now.
I MAKE THE BEST PUDDING. ok, its important to state that i've only tried my own pudding.

i think this is the cutest picture i've ever seen. look, there's a fish cloud in the background! :D
Credits to: Elaine and Olivia :#
How could i forget to mention:
I CANNOT WAIT TO GET THAT DICTIONARY! i think its just tomorrow, so. Anyway life needs a driving force. without something that gets you going, you won't get going. yey. (ok, what did i just type?)

i didn't know you'd do such a thing,
but i took it as if nothing has happened,
so please stop! If you're sorry!
I heard it from someone i was not even close to,
it was right before you, and you still denied!
but i could read that guilty look!

It's working,

My first CD WALKMAN is working.
believe it or not!
it's been 7 years.
and the sound quality is still good.(:
I am using it because my ipod is updating!
Now i realise how i miss this thing!

And, anyway, my effort to focus is working too,
although i'm here now.


i remember the time my balance was fine;
i was just walking on one fine wire,
i remember the time my balance was fine;
i was just walking on one fine wire,
funny, i don't seem to care if i fall anymore.

if you ask me what i'm feeling,
i am confused.
I am so confused with everything.
First, i dont know what to think anymore, cause i don't know whether i am following myself, or others, yet, i'm quite sure i'm not following anyone, but then and again.
Second, i don't understand how peoples actions and words contradict each other so greatly. I think its irritating and confusing when anyone reacts the opposite of what she says she feels.
the reason why i am so puzzled by these things is that i don't know what to believe, and what to think, and when i dont know all these, isnt it as good as isolating myself? If i don't believe anything anymore, then why should i even listen to anything? If i don't listen, then i won't talk, won't i? but i will, i always end up talking.
but WHATEVER.
anything, anything's fine
as long as i can gain back my concentration,
i'd give more or less anything to get that back.

OH, HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY!

i regret taking that cup of coffee.
guess what i'm doing now,
i'm changing my msn name to the current minute.
that's how bored i am.
urgh.

OHMYGOSH!
i am very high now, (even after my chinese tuition) all because of one cup of coffee, and some sweets.
today is a smiley day for me.
i shall remember the day in a positive way. (although i didnt bring like 5 things in total)
1. i didnt get into trouble for not bringing these five things: English summary, math textbook, math homework, progress report(nvr sign), HEYMATH form thing(she missed my name out i think!)
2.i showed my super long nails to my class prefect, but she missed out on the fact that it was SUPER LONG completely.
3.i didnt wear my nametag today, cause i was very lazy, so i just slipped on a jacket, and was not caught for it! (ohman, i feel like a criminal! i am doing so many wrong things! never again!)
4.(this didnt happen today but lets just be thankful) I LEARNT HOW TO DO A BODY WAVE
5.Chinese tuition was fun. cause we did oral. haha!
6. My papa dont let me go out tomorrow. (so i can study! see, i told you i'm in a good mood.)
7. I can remember the lyrics to this japanese song. (i'm really trying hard now)
8. I HAD PORRIDGE FOR RECESS! i like to talk about my food. it was nice, cause i added alot of soy sauce, lots. i love soy sauce. why is soy sauce pronounced as 'soya sauce' is it the same? someone please tell me.
ohoh, lastly, this is my new happy face (*: i know its weird.
haha, beatrice is annoyed now, cause i wont tell her what i told olivia during chinese class.(*:

12じの いぷまでから わたしは わすれますが ぽしんです。
yey! i formed a japanese sentence(:

You know times when you just feel like letting everything inside of you go,
i think its impossible.
i just want to sleep through the entire week, wake up, and hope to find that everything that i worry about is missing.
and i'll never ever be sad or tired ever again.
I want a new life.
I want to be someone else.
I want to feel better about everything,
but what good is hope?
it doesn't get you anywhere, does it?
for once, stop being positive, stop smiling everything away, when that obviously does not work.

Alone, in the cold wind, I was searching for the future
for I had held on to my belief



















I'm a coward i tell you, i really am.
even with a bible and a torchlight,
i still find myself running away from what is not even there.
that aside, i have so much work to finish!
and my right brain isn't being very co-operative.
I don't know how I'm going to survive the weekend!
it's been such a busy week!
(i ate laksa for lunch today!)

Today was the last day of the study skills workshop.
After that, my sister and i went home to change,
and then we went to the polka concert.
everyone started coming in before the second piece,
later on, after the whole thing, we walked over to fullerton side to get dinner.
(Euphoria, Grace, Arlene, Angel, Charite, Melissa, Shen, Aishu)
We took lots of pictures.
finally, only Euphoria, Grace, Charite and I were left eating dinner by the river side.
It looked pretty.
but then i was too worried about my mum's shoes and also about my parents worrying!
so, anyway the soup i ordered was not that nice for $12.
I think i prefer the $2 sharks fin soup that i can buy at tiong Bahru plaza(:
They put SO MUCH vinegar in it!
at first it was nice, but after awhile, it becomes a little too sour!
I think night life is not for me.
Its my first time staying out til 11:15pm.
And i keep freaking out.
I think it was just a little too much, but i really can't help it!
We were taking a picture at the bridge, then i was like posing as a model,
suddenly, this american or something pops out of nowhere and gos: ME TOO! or something like that. Then I got a shock and ran to the other side, then he ran off too. Euphoria was very sad, cause she thought the guy was hot (or cute, whatever!). and she wanted to call him back. but i objected, cause it would be unsafe so she didnt do it. but i bet she wouldnt have done it anyway.
so i'm safe, but it was so freaky.
AT NIGHT OK.
ok, my halter bra is pulling my neck down, its starting to hurt, so, goodnight.

Hey.
Today's study skills thing wasnt so bad.
See?
(i shan't quote myself when yesterday's post can still be seen!)
Anyway, i was suffering from a terrible headache! ),:
ah well, what can be done?
at least i was not falling asleep!
okay, even though its finally over, we have another long day ahead of us!
so i should sleep!
goodbye!(this is a lousy post!)


Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me
We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream’s fate
i just thought this sounds nice and familiar.

GANBATE KUDASAI!

I give up on livejournals. Thinking about it makes me feel so frustrated!
So I won't talk about it.
Tomorrow, I will try my best to stay awake for the study skills thing!
I say since we have to attend it, we all should try our best to learn something new.



Although you wouldn't understand,
走り抜ける季節たち柔らかな陽射しを
背中に受けて
1人冷たい風の中未来を探してた
信じてたから
Never go away 誰だって恐いはずでもね
Never go away いつだって忘れないだから
もしぼくら道に迷う事があっても
希望の光を心に灯そう
知らない色の大空が果てしなく続くよ
どこまで行こう

The farewell party today was very fun!
I ate a lot.
Their present was very sweet.
They gave us medals, and a tennis ball charm(:
my medal reads: Our Mighty Captain 07/08
but ramya's medal is the most funny-est.
it says: best hairstyle! (she was upset, but beatrice was more than upset cause hers read: Sotong! hhaha!)
I'm tired!
I forgot to bring my glasses again to training today, so everything was very blur.
Yesterday, sports day was cancelled.
Alibaba(olivia), Elaine, and I went to all three marks and spencers, to look for a diary that i saw, but then it was gone. ): so we went to taka, and i ended up buying something that was very expensive.
After that, we went to collect the movie tickets to KOIZORA (sky of love). My sister, Suz, and Sarah arrived just on time.
the show was kinda sad.
I would have cried, but i laughed at olivia's reaction, so i held back my tears until the last part (':
anyway, i would not recommend the show, but i thought it was quite nice- if you like to watch japanese dramas.
okay, its 12:24 now, i should go to sleep!
(oh!my bag came today!)

they are back together again! (: <3